I went grocery shopping for the ingredients for the dessert I am making for the Christmas party tomorrow. I alomst couldn't get thru the store, wanted to by all kinds of crap to eat, and binge binge binge.
I started to think about you Lauren, intuitively, I knew I would need to eat something, and tried to think of what would be right, that would be satisfying, but wouldn't make me feel sick etc.
THEN I realized that I hadn't eaten a proper lunch, just the apple I brought for snack, since I wasn't supposed to work this afternoon, but had to stay to cover someone else.
SO, I bought some flat bread and hummus, which I ate on the way home, and had an early healthy supper.
Now, I feel ready to do my baking and not eat myself up with guilt!
Ugh, I made it two days , but then a friend came over, and well candy was involved. I went and worked out after , but still I'm not impressed. But the candy contraband is gone and im back on track . Day one again tomorrow.
I'm still hanging in there, but have to attend a funeral/family gathering later on today. I'm up right now because I'm anxious about the family part. This day could well be a triggering event for me.
My plan is start off the day with some meditation and yoga and eat a healthful breakfast before departing.
Ugh. Had 3 glasses of champagne and about 9 chocolate biscuits last night after a perfectly balanced day of eating, on schedule and everything. Was shooting for 1400 calories and ended up eating more than 2100. Totally emotional and stress related. Disappointing, but today is a new day and I will do some exercise and eat well.
I'm currently on TOM and a rather out of control eating phase. It's difficult to accept both of these, but it all depends on how I look at it. I could be going out of my way to be unhealthy and I'm not. After a particularly painful ibnge yesterday I was sitting feeling rather rotten when something very obvious occurred. I thought to myself. ' I feel bad, instead of waiting around for soembody to validate my behaviour or make me feel better, I CAN'. So I consoled myself, and I really dont regret my binge. It happened and I didnt beat myself up about it.
Just thought I'd share that with you. It's much nicer to treat ourselves with love than feel horrid and continuesly prod at our mistakes, yet we still do it.
FatMad - you are amazing, I want to get to "double figures" binge free days too. Congratulations!
Great moment for you when you realised why you were soo hungry in the supermarket and made a sensible food choice - superb tip for the rest of us.
Start of day 3 for me - I have planned my food and and divided it into 3 meals and 3 snacks so I am never more than 3 hours from food and it seems to help - plus all the junk has gone from the kitchen.
Migotokokoro: Hot drinks do help me resist food, I tend to use coffee to fire myself up before exercise.
You still made it to ten days WardHog. One day at a time.
When does is all go wrong for people after a period of planned eating? I get too hungry if I cut back to hard on fat, after 3 days I go mad and can't stop eating for 24 hours :-(
Well... I guess today is day four... I may make crepes... with applesauce and cinnamon... I don't use sugar or anything in them. I use flour, 2 eggs, milk, and vanilla. I cook them and then fill them with applesauce and cinnamon. Sound good? Or I might just have cheerios again...
