Tinky-Good luck tomorrow...CONGRATS!!!!!!

Would someone just smack me one, please? I had a baaaad day, yesterday. Right after lunch I started on one heck of a feeding frenzy that didn't stop until just before I went to bed, last night. Ugh! I am still burping mint from that horrid piece of cake my husband brought home from work. It wasn't even good cake, either. Chocolate with mint frosting. The cake was dry and flavourless and the frosting... That over-fluffy, greasy store frosting with too much mint oil in it. Ack! Totally wasn't worth the calories and the misery I am still feeling.

I am back OP, today and still feeling horrible.

Why do I do this?

What is my damage?

Where is the disconnect between what I want and what I do?

*Bangs head on desk.*

Thanks for letting me whine.

irish_ sorry about your sister...I know its hard..i come from a mixed up family also...my cousin is actaullly my sister.LOL I can totally relate!!!

rain_ it must be contagious..i had it on tuesday and then you had it yesterday...glad your back op today..im still up 2lbs from mine...grrr I know i didnt eat that much extra. Tom is heading my way also..fun fun

tinky_ enjoy your day..take lots of pictures for us to see. HAVE FUN!!!

Tinky ~ It won't stick around long and I am just a day off. LOL! All week I have thought it was a different day of the week than it really is. I am not used to working so hard. Sad but true. This is your time, have fun. You can always diet another day. Besides your metabolism is probably going fast enough now that if you do gain its just water.

Irish ~ You shouldn't feel bad because you knew him better than your Sis in reality. My ODD would be devastated if DH's family didn't acknowledge her at his funeral. He was just as much of a Dad to her as his own DD. Matter of fact, the only one she knew. You should be mad. Sounds like the situation got a little messy but your Sis shouldn't take it personally it was probably something to do with traditions that kept it from being revealed. Something like, my son didn't do that, denial, thats all.

Still ~ I can still remember being 36. LOL! Guess I am not so old after all. Restarting is always hard for me, harder than sticking with it in the first place.

I felt so lucky last night. I decided to take time to do what I wanted to do. I worked with all three horses. I worked with Mr. Pibbs, put the harness on him and line drove him. He doesn't like the bit DD has on her harness. Will try a different one but what I could tell is he has been driven before but he is very rusty and may have never been finished. Oh Happy Happy Joy Joy, NOT! That is a lot of work but I have done it before. I drove DD's mini 3 miles, he is fun to drive but can be a stinker. He tries to turn around when he wants to go home. Then I drove Peek, my guy, around the yard. His feet still hurt so I have to keep him in grass because the rocks hurt. He is getting shoes put on the 20th to see if that will help. He hates it but to bad so sad he is getting them on. That was my night and I really enjoyed it.

Today YDD called me crying because her BF said he wants to break up because "He just can't deal with it". Can't deal with what? What a JA to say the least. They had problems earlier this week and I have been thinking about it. He wants to make her what he wants her to be. Foowy on that. You know I made the same mistakes when I was you but now if a guy tried to make me change who I am I would show them what they could kiss. She never tells him things that irritate her. He isn't my BF but I can tell her a few things that irritate me. How about he needs to shower, shave, brush his teeth and put some pit powder on. He thinks he is God's gift to woman and even has CSC charges against him. He is a know it all and I love it when we prove him wrong. He is a mooch, yup a big mooch. I know he is mad because we haven't bought DD her car yet, because he keeps bringing it up. Its not for him, its hers. Control freak also. Nope, I hope he says gone.

Well I better get going for now and I will talk to you all later. I have to go pick her up because she is not up to working. I think its time to go shopping and to dinner after we let the dogs out. I need a new nose ring, my little diamond just fell out. LOL!

OH MY GOSH! Is that a wedding march I hear playing. Today is your big day Tinky, LIVE IT UP GIRL!

Well I blew it last night, seems to be a theme. LOL! I took DD out and we had some ICK we shared at the end of our meal. We went shopping afterward and sept to much money but her cloths shopping is done I do believe. I bought a cute hat and a dress shirt that has a built in vest. So I have them on today. I am being brave because I have never worn a hat to work before and rarely even wear them at home. I thought it was cute and so did DD so I wore it. Screw it, what can they do but laugh at me. I don't really care.

Getting depressed about the scale, really irritated for me for not following my program. Today I am punishing myself in a way by forcing myself to eat things I know works well with my body. I measure everything out, no processed anything and all is healthy. That is all there is to it. If I want to lose I can't keep messing around. So Momma is taking over and making things work. LOL! My alter ego. HAHAHAHA! I want to be at 165 by the end of the month I will force it to happen one way or another.

TOM full force and I feel like crap physically and mentally. I am angry and I am taking this anger and concentrating it on fixing this mindset of I can do it, I will do it. GRRR! I am a mean hormonal machine today.

Well I better get going for now and I will talk to you all later.

TINKY-Good luck today....I sure hope your day is beautiful!!!!!!

AWWW tinky!!!!!
I hope your day is wonderful and beautiful and everything you want it to be. I feel the same way about everyone on here. I don't have alot of close friends so the people on here kind of became that. I love how it doesn't matter how different we all are we all have one thing in common and that bonds us closer then the regualr things people have in common ie age, hobbies etc. there is nothing more bonding then being able to relate to the struggle of weight loss. I love you guys....great now I am all emotional thanks tinky!!!!!!!!

Like Irish, I don't have a lot of personal friends because I am shy. I know, hard to believe but for some reason I am not shy here. I feel like I can be myself and remove all other factors. The odd thing that has been happening over the last few years as I build friendships on the internet I am finding my shyness is going away. I now strike up conversations with strangers in stores and events. Must be I changed on the inside.

Tinky ~ I didn't really think you would have time to stop in and I feel very honored that you were able to. The hardest part about internet friendships is we can't actually be there for things in person but I am with you in my thoughts and spirits but you already knew that.

Well I better get some work done, I have done next to nothing today. I really need a vacation because I am starting to become a slacker really bad. I do the necessities and that is it. I have it in me to do so much more but no ambition.

Irish ~ I thought about you last night when I took DD shopping. She grabbed a white t-shirt that has a little vest across the chest area that has skull and cross bones on it. I instantly thought of your outfit you bought for Idol.

Talk to you all later.

grammy: wow that shirt sounds awesome

I forgot to check in, didn't I? Yesterday and today went much better. Yesterday I came in at: 1150. Today I am only at 987, so far. No wonder I am feeling a little growly in the tummy. I think snack is in order.

Congratulations, Tinky!

hey all dropping in to quickyl say I started cutting out alot of carbs yesterday and I dropped 2 lbs over night...I guess I am carb sensitive...I just cut out breads, pastas etc. Tinky if you read this hope your day was awesome. ok off to work with the paper I have to photo assignments today ttys
Nic

Hi there, counters.

Today is a good day, so far. Yesterday ended up at: 1165.

I am feeling a little rumbly in the tumbly, today. I don't know why. I am getting plenty to eat. Maybe it is just the weather, there is a storm blowing in and the fact that it is a weekend.

*sigh*

WOOHOOO this bread thing is working!!!!! 171 baby!!!! tinky better watch out I am coming lol. well off to the family BBQ today I will behave!!!! no birthday cake for me!!! hope everyone is doing well