Hi
Hi, first of all, I look forward to meeting all of you!
This is my story.
About a year and a half ago, I became very concerned about my weight and began my extreme diet and an exercise routine which i adhered to for at least 6 days a week. I began losing weight quickly, and to my satisfaction I was able to lose 35 pounds over a few months.
Later, people started noticing my dieting/exercising behaviors, and I met symptoms for eating disorder not otherwise specified. At first I was not particularly concerned, and I think I enjoyed being on the skinny side. However, as I started learning more about eating disorders I realized that my health was deteriorating in many ways, and I started allowing myself some treats to gain a few pounds.
Unfortunately, at that point there were also many stressors in my life, and I have always been a stress-induced binger my entire life. Over a period of 2 months, I gained 20 pounds through indulging in sweets, stuffing myself at buffets... Later, I started controlling my behaviors but I simply lacked the motivation to do so. I stopped dieting and stopped exercising. While my rate of weight gain did slow down slightly, it wasn't long until I found myself weighing more than my pre-diet weight. Eventually, I was able to stop gaining weight, but I was not able to go back to the routine that I had before and thus my weight maintained at the current level.
I am considered overweight according to my BMI calculation, while most, if not all my friends are underweight. I know that my friends will not discriminate against me based on my weight, but I feel self conscious being around them when they try on their size 00 while I go for a size 8. I have stopped attending my school's social events (the ones that require a dress) because I simply do not look good in a dress (might I add that I do not put on weight in flattering parts of my body).
Now, my school stress is increasing again and I have been binging a lot. I really can't afford to lose more weight. I hope that I will be able to start losing weight healthily by keeping myself accountable here. I also hope that we can support each other and work towards a healthier life style / body weight!
Thank you for reading!
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