Trying yet again
I have tried to lose weight many times in the past. I have very good experience with this forum, which is an amazig place and the last attempt lasted somewhat longer than it would normally do.
My go-to method was always calorie and macro counting. While it does make me lose weight, other problems keep cropping up which eventually make me quit. I want to try something different, something less defined, which won't make me obsessed with numbers (I love numbers) to the point of going overboard and having it interfere with my quality of life.
At about 180lbs I decided that as long as I don't gain any more weight, I'm actually pretty much fine. Until yesterday. I managed to sprain my knee in an accident, then I was stupid about it and tried to walk it off for a few days.
When I finally went to the doctor, the leg was really swollen from mid-thigh down to my toes, but the point still stands. I was supposed to get a knee brace. They didn't have one large enough, the largest was too small by what looked like almost 4". I'm stuck with a flimsy compression bandage that honestly doesn't do much. It's a bit of a wake up call, not to say pretty embarrassing.
I am pretty much a think first, act later person. I think a new approach is in order. Something less direct, but perhaps longer lasting. It's clear it's a lifestyle thing, continuing to be the size I am. Lifestyle arises from a mix of values, fears, beliefs, etc. Really, it's probably the best, most effective system based on the inner landscape. So, following this theory, the deepest and most worthwhile change would be achieved by altering these fundamental aspects from which life-style or even life-view stems. The added benefit is that I would not be working against myself.
The thing with analysis is that sometimes it can go in circles with personal issues. Sometimes a bit of input, or really, even the idea that others will read it, can break the circle and make it move. So I guess, the question here is: Will you tolerate a bunch of self-reflective rants which I am likely to produce in my attempt to get to the bottom of this?
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