I've been having a few days where I am just having trouble feeling like this just isn't worth it.
Usually I'm able to talk myself down from the ledge and say "self, what are your alternatives?" And really, they are pretty bad alternatives. I could feel worse physically and emotionally by stuffing my face with an extreme excess of food that's bad for my body and not exercise, just let myself feel like garbage. And that's not an option.
The thing is, I've been counting calories consistently since August, and exercising pretty consistently since February. I eat about 1800 calories a day (although sometimes more, sometimes less, but usually not enough to not at least maintain). I exercise on the elliptical or incline treadmill 40 minutes, 4-5 times a week (enough to get me extremely sweaty and short of breath).
Is this just not enough?
My pattern is: I get to my "low" of 262. Then I bounce up and get back down to it and then it happens again. This has been happening OVER AND OVER AGAIN and I can't figure out why.
I confess that there are some weekends, and sometimes longer (if I'm visiting family for a few days, for instance) where my diet is not ideal. BUT I always get right back on track, and sometimes it's like... for WHAT? My weight loss is extremely slow and it is so discouraging.
I know we all lose at different rates and losing 2 lb/week is not always a reality. But some days (like today and yesterday) I get so frustrated that I can't even see a clear path ahead and I feel like I will NEVER get there.
For instance, my calorie deficits are usually at about 1000 after exercise. These last few days they've been at 500 or less, and I gained 3 pounds.
I hate logging every single calorie and thinking about this so often and having nothing work. I've had trouble losing weight before, but never THIS much. I'm exhausted all of the time and it's just been harder to motivate myself to get up earlier and exercise.
We all go through this, I know... and it makes me want to just kick something and throw a tantrum.
(and for whatever reason, it's not even TOM related. I'm just cranky as all getout about this!!!!)