thanks for the hug Newleaf,,,,i was afraid to say that i'm a binger out loud, but now that i did i feel better...and hopeful..and I may start a thread Cattails.

Newleaf I had no idea what my bra size was....finally i went to the Bra Lady on Lexington Avenue....I got fitted....much to my surprise i was a 32DDD or F! I never would have guessed that...I bought one bra..but after that I knew what my size was so I could get bras on ebay or cheaper stores....I think it is well worth it.....so go to Nordstroms and get fitted...they don't charge you for the fitting,,,,and you may be able to find bras on sale. If the salesladies see that you are trying to find a deal they will help you......just my two cents....Ive got huge hooters and take this kind of thing seriously. An ill fitting bra is so uncomfortable..and doesn't look nice either.....my favorite brands ..Wacoal and Natori

Zumba and everyone else who struggles with ED's! :hug:

Aah, buying bras... It is such a trial and error. Right now I measure 32E/F, but I am most comfortable at 34DD/34E. I like my band snug, but not too snug. It is good to get measured, especially when weight changes. I have gone from 38E to 34DD in a year. Expensive year... At my heaviest I only had two bras that I rotated. I believe spending money on good bras; so I spent $100 on each bra and treated them gently. And sports bras. I can not get any cheap ones from Target etc. They never give enough support. I use the Panache sports bra. Someone here at 3FC's described it as "boob armor", nothing moves or jiggles about in those babies. I found some on Amazon for $52.

I have "partied" two nights in a row. And it shows on my scale. Amazing how fast that water weight accumulates. It is going to take me a week to undo two nights out. I ordered shrimp scampi over rice; I haven't had rice in ages and it tasted sooooo good that I ate the whole portion. Naughty me. So today's plan is to flush out the bad carbs I consumed over the past 2 days.

Today is supposed to be my grueling exercise day; I don't know if I am going to do all planned exercises. I was so tired on Thursday after a similar day.

Sun is out, I am looking forward to my walk with my pup and hub :)

Have a beautiful and fruitful day my friends!

On the subject of bras my current ones are a size 40E and I got them through a "party" type business. They are expensive but keep the girls in place, lol. I also have two I rotate in "nude" and a black one for when needed and one sports bra (you should seriously see the sports bra, it's like a corset, lol!) At some point I'm going to need a new size. I think I will buy less expensive bras when I do and when I get further along shell out for the nicer ones. We'll see. I also believe in quality bras.

We were supposed to go to a fish fry last night but a really bad storm came up. I had nothing planned for dinner so we ended up ordering asian. The scale is up 1.5 lbs today, lol. I'm sure it would have done the same with the fish fry. I've started drinking water before my coffee even so maybe I can flush it out before my "official" weekly weigh in on Monday.

My husband won a hunting trip through a local store and is gone all day. He is not a hunter so not sure how he'll do but I'm looking at the prospect of him showing up with something I'm supposed to clean tonight. Ewwwwwwww! I'm thinking of taking my daughter strawberry picking today. It just opened up here and we are busy next weekend. It usually only lasts a few weeks.

I had enormous breast. From 36d-42ddd. Losing weight never made them reasonable. Last Summer the doc found abnormal breast tissue and insurance covered reconstruction. Now with further weightloss and surgery the are 34b, I love them.

Zumba I'm not doing good AT ALL. I make it though the morning and then I don't know what goes through my head. Last night my husband came home from work at 11:35pm and asked me "what are you doing?" I told him "putting frosting on a cake!"
he said why?
I'm thinking duh! because I'm going to eat it.
I told him "I wanted something sweet earlier we didn't have anything" <-- end of my talking to him
... then I homed in to a box of cake mix in the pantry. ... Zumba I told him as I'm eating this at 11:45pm that, "I only made a third of the box, I used an egg, coconut oil and 60% cocoa chips" like that made it made it better. I had to justify it in my mind and I did. You are not along my friend. Like I said I don't know that all of us have a known eating disorder and/or have had a doctor diagnose it but I think we all have one or have had one. Some just know how to control it/reel if back in and others we just go with the flow until we are tired, idk. I hope I'm not making you feel worse. I do know that I am having a very hard time here lately and I think it has to do with the stresses of life. I pray for your strength, my strength and everyone else. I do know I am tired of this yo-yo and I don't have anywhere to turn except for 3FC. My heart is for you Zumba, don't stop posting :hug:

just catching up ... Zumba's post caught my eye

Michelle good to see you :hug: and Shannon I agree with Michelle I think that is a great idea for you to start that thread. or you all can do a closed group on FB that only we can see. I post with some of the people I use to post with on here back in 2010/2011. We are not as active as we use to be but every now and then those issues that you don't want the world to see do come up.

Heidi, good to see you :hug: this is so true ---> One of the things that constantly amazes me in life is that when I open up about something, I find out that so many people are experiencing or have gone through the same thing

I don't have any comments for on bras, if it weren't for sagging I don't think that I would need one. :) I hate them.

We had fried fish last night :) same effect as your Asian food. I'm up today also just adding to the last two days of ups on the scale :) ... I'm gonna have to get some ideas from you on what goes on here. I had seen a sign on 70 last year that said something about strawberry picking but have no idea where anything is then I forget about it. Our thing to do is apple picking. Is there an apple orchard that you know of here? I know it's not until September/October but it would be great to plan :) That storm was interesting so glad the bad part passed us. Did you see on the news the guy that got under his trailer? I thought what a blessing. It took his roof but the trailer was still in tact and kept him safe.

Abbi great job on being so close to goal :carrot:

Sum at least you enjoyed yourself and can still smile knowing it's water weight :)

Hi all...as much as I say Im going to keep away from this thread I keep coming back :) you ladies are all so supportive.

Love2b the definition of an ED is any unhealthy relationship with food. It doesn't mean you have to be the extreme. I think many people that are overweight feel that they don't have a good relationship with food. So who knows? Maybe ED is overused. I know when i was taking laxatives to lose weight and drinking sodium citrate I definitely had a problem.....as far as the cake goes next time you have a sweet tooth have something else on hand that may cut the craving for you.....Im thinking of making a "bar" out of my protein shake mix and bananas...I found a recipe for that today. I figure i could keep them in the freezer and have if I feel like i'm going out of my mind for something sweet..atleast i could say it was up there with having a shake.....

OH and y'all were discussing sports bra..i am so very saggy and shakey.....not cool when you are teaching zumba...so I only can wear Enell bras...the thing is ugly and feel like i'm in a straight jacket, but that is ALL that works for me. So you ladies that are big and want absolutely NO shaking thats the bra to get..it is very very ugly.

Went to the gym today and walked on the treadmill because it was raining...was on for a half hour...on an incline....it says i burned a little over 200 calories, not alot but i was more interested in toning benefits from the incline than calories burned.

went to lunch with my friend who was at the gym with me...we went to organic market and I had a beet, celery and cucumber juice (eeeewww) and we shared a chicken and vegetable stir fry...it was so good and all organic.....not eating again until i go to dinner tonight and i already know i'm ordering either fish or a big salad with chicken.....:)

Lost two lbs of bloat from yesterday so I'm back to 152.....crazy how i could lose two lbs in one day....i don't think I pee'd all that much so I wonder where exactly the two lbs went....things that make you go hmmmmm.....

off to finish cleaning my bedroom...

Zumba I have the pre-made Atkins shakes, protein powder and carbmasters yogurt. I didn't think of them at the time and they would have been a much better choice. :) especially at that hour. I also have the Atkins double chocolate snack bar which reminds me of Oreos (smack on the head, now I think about it)

I am glad you keep coming back Zumba!! We are here to support each other on good days and on bad days :love:

Yeah, Enell bras are fantastic!

I just did my 4.7 mile puppy walk, I was flying. I was panting, so I got some aerobic exercise in as well. Sun was out but air is very cold. Wonder if we ever get spring time weather, let alone summer! :eek:

I definitely don't have a healthy relationship with food. When I was at my heaviest, I was very unhappy and I think I kept punishing and soothing myself at the same time with food. -- I felt really ugly inside, so I figured I must look ugly outside as well.

Even now it is constant battle to eat healthy and within limits. Calorie counting suits me for that reason. I give myself an allowance and stick with it. All new items I measure, to get accurate calorie measurement. I do turn to food when things are rough. -- I need happy and stress-free life in order to diet successfully. I am working on that right now. I have become happier as a person within the last year and it shows on my scale. Less misery I have, less desire I have to over eat.

I had zero interest in food when I was younger. How I miss those days. I ate because I had to. Needless to say I was very slender. Then life happened and food became my crutch.

I wish I could eat to fuel my body and workouts. I wish I could occasionally indulge on a fab restaurant meal without feeling guilty on the following day. Maybe I will get there when I reach goal??

Hi, friends. Lost a lot of water weight this AM... yay!

Nice food day: normal breakfast of cappuccino & hot cereal with banana; leftover Thai curry (homemade) chicken, tofu, and veggies over brown rice for lunch; planned homemade beef stew for dinner.

Went for a nice walk while the boys were at cello lessons this morning. Nothing else to report.

Here's to a good remainder of the weekend for everyone, and especially tonight! Weekend nights seem tough for everyone... :hug:

Zumba does it have hooks all the way down the front? I think
Enell is the name of mine too, lol!

Massive off plan food day.....not weighing tomorrow!

We went to Dean's Farm in Wilson because my family is in that area and we were going to see them too but I think Vollmer is the closest place near us Rennie. There is an apple orchard not too far as well, I need to remember the name of it! We missed it this year by accident. I am really freaked by these sudden storms we get now. Do you remember the bad one in mid January? A good friend of ours was out walking on a trail in our neighborhood and killed by a falling tree. She was 50 and so full of life.

Sum you know I think I just accepted it and listened to peoples snide comments (that would always hurt my feelings). I got bigger and bigger and it never clicked until ... I couldn't fit my clothes (I refused to go to the next size) so I used a band to hook my pants and wore maternity shirts to cover. ... I couldn't keep up with my daughter. Once she had gone all the way upstairs from the basement and I couldn't make it past the first landing. My family would actually ask me are you gonna get any bigger or say you've gotten bigger since the last time I saw you. I think I just didn't like skinny (thin) people so I felt like it was ok to eat what I wanted when I wanted. Because they were sticks and I didn't want to look like them. I still don't know that I want to be thin (I hope I am not offending anyone) I don't mean to but I just want to be healthy. So just maybe subconsciously I am sabotaging myself, idk. I do know that every time I get close to the next decade I eat like there is no tomorrow. Life's stress does play a role but am I causing the added stress?

Shannon ... Boy do I remember that storm, sorry about your friend :hug: talk about close to home.

Well I am gonna have a huge gain tomorrow. I ate everything today but the kitchen sink :( tomorrow will be a better day ... I am promising myself.

Rennie, I don't know why anybody would be offended. :) I would hope that you aim to be what you want to be, not what you think others expect of you. For me, healthy is the real goal; I'm never going to be Hollywood beautiful and I don't care - I don't want to work that hard! But being as healthy and strong as I reasonably can be, that's my pot o' gold. :goldpot: Here's to a good day tomorrow for everyone!

Ahhh Stress. I agree that stress makes everything more difficult (as I am experiencing now). What is so ironic to me is that I know when we are under tremendous stress, that's exactly when good nutrition and a stable exercise routine can really, really help your body cope. Yet those 2 things are often the first to go out the door.

I keep reminding myself it is important to treat my body like I'd treat my best friend's body. If I was responsible for feeding a friend, you can bet I'd put in alot of effort choosing healthy foods and making other healthy choices. It's just my own body I'm so willing to abuse.

Rennie -- Healthy is the goal for me, too. I'd bet it is the goal for alot of us.

Ok gals, per your request, here is a new thread for the hard days, please read description in initial post
http://www.3fatchicks.com/forum/40-s...ml#post4992809

If anyone is interested in starting a FB group for privacy, please feel free to do so. I had an addiction problem with FB and gave it up for 4 months from Nov to March. I have a new account now but it is only for family so I can keep up with them and share my daughter's pics, no groups or friends, so that I do not fall back into where I used to be. Thanks!

Wise words... Totally agree

Thanks Cattails :hug: that is my pot o' gold also :D so I'll be around for my children and prayerfully my grandchildren also :) Cattails and Heidi, it wasn't about me wanting to be what someone else wanted me to be, it was about me being stubborn and in my mind comfortable with the weight. Their words made me not want to lose weight. ... in actuality they didn't care, I gave them something to talk about. But who did that harm? ... me ... so the new attitude and sometimes more sensible me is here wanting to lose weight and get healthy :D

Michelle, That is truly a way to put it in black and white ... how you would treat a friend ... that is funny how we can care for someone else better than we will or do for ourselves :)

LOL Shannon my addiction other than food is 3FC. My kids tell me to get off of here. ... thanks for starting the group. I'm all for the private group because have you ever search for some on google and a 3FC thread will come up with everything someone has said, scary.

Fresh New Start

04/21 ~ 163.8 (+0.8)
04/22 ~ 163.0 (-0.8)
04/23 ~ 162.0 (-1.0)
04/24 ~ 162.6 (+0.6)
04/25 ~ 162.8 (+0.2)
04/26 ~ 163.6 (+0.8)
04/27 ~ 164.6 (+1.0)
04/28 ~
04/29 ~
04/30 ~ Goal 160.0

A new start was my plan but I haven't done well so far. I've had a gain everyday since the 24th. I am up 2.6lbs total but I am gonna do the 5:2 diet today and see if I can get the scale to move down. :) Hope it works so I can see a loss by the end of April :crossed:

Lots of wisdom going around here :grouphug:

3FCs addiction, you and me both, Rennie! My computer keeps telling me "You've visited this site a LOT." Yeah, so what - shut up already! :D There's far worse things to be addicted to, hm?

Thank you, Shannon, for starting a thread; looks good. :)

I forgot to say earlier: welcome back, Michelle - sorry you've been struggling, and kudos for not letting things go too long. Hope your stresses are getting dealt with.

Happy Sunday everybody - it's the beginning of a brand new week! Fresh start for us all! :flow2:

I am tired today. I did a long workout last night, eventhough I slept a full night, I felt tired. I did go to my 9 am aerobics class and did well...run some errands and then collapsed. I took a 2 hour nap :eek: But I am listening to my body and letting it get rest when it wants it. -- I napped on a chair, and now I have a stiff neck :D

I think I will skip my 5 mile walk today. Just get rested up. -- I have worked out every day since the 8th, I think I may need a day off.

Weight is still up from the weekend. I am not panicking :) It will flush out soon enough. Well maybe not today; I ate lots of smoked salmon....

Was in class ALL DAY today.....so much information...it was just too much to process....the instructor brought up every worse case scenario that could happen at a closing. It made me want to cry......the thought of being at a closing and not knowing what to do would be the end of me.....funny, i sat through five or six closings for myself and don't remember the title closer doing anything like what she's saying, so i don't know if she was exaggerating or trying to make herself sound super human......i don't know what i want to do now....so many decisions to make as I start my new life.....

Last night i went to dinner with and friend and had a small hanger steak and brussel sprouts, water (no alcohol). I felt very much in control. My DB came over (although i use the word boyfriend loosely now) and I can tell that he has been working out, his arms were huge and tight and the rest of him was pretty solid also......and here i am looking worse by the day..a big glob. I hope working with the trainer gives me the incentive that i need to get it together. NO workout today because I was in school all day and Im pretty tired now...but I am definitely going to do some pushups and sit ups and lunges before bed......I made a promise to myself not to let one day go by that i don't do "something" active.....

So so true Cattails, and I am so hoping to really keep the next 3 days fresh. I will really be bummed if I can't get under my 163.2 on the 30th.

Sum good job on listening to your body :), sorry about your neck :hug:

Zumba hopefully the instructor was just giving worse case scenarios to make or break you all, just stand strong you can do it :hug: On your DB let that be incentive, and you're not a glob :hug: I need to make the promise to do something active daily, I feel so much better when I do :)

I finally went to the gym, felt really good. My son got on me because I am doing a low cal/carb day and I burned so many calories. Sum I brought your name up and said she's fine (I did a forth of what she does) and this is just one day it's not like I'm going to do this daily. I'd go crazy :)

Congrats on getting back at the gym, Rennie! And low calorie days are good for your body too.

I ate smoked salmon yesterday, a whole package of it :eek: Now I am paying the price, scale jumped many pounds and I am retaining water like mad. I tried flushing the sodium out, but my body decided that it liked the water and is keeping it in. I feel like a balloon, someone pop me please? Even my face is swollen, esp. eyes are looking small and eye lids really puffy.

I will keep assaulting my body with more water, eventually it has to release it right? I drank about 100 oz yesterday and barely used the loo. I am shooting for another 100 oz for today. Just watch, I will be at the FCA and really busy and in a need of use the toilet all day :D And no time. I will need to wear a diaper :lol:

These water pounds are going to take days to get rid off, ugh. Hoping for a decent weigh in by the 1st. But I am not panicking. I know I did not eat enough to cause any real weight gain. -- I am more intrigued by the fact how sodium sensitive I am.

Weekend was filled with off plan items, and I was okay with it. Just my binge with smoked salmon was too much.

I exercised very well this weekend though.

Today is my FCA day, which means a fast day; boy my body really needs it. Get things settled down a bit. I will only swim tonight for exercise. My puppy has not have a day off form walking since the 8th and she is looking pretty tired. She is not a young dog any more. She will enjoy her day off.

My goal was to exercise 3000 minutes this month (50 hours), and I am at 2945, I think I am going to make it! :) I don't know if I am going to set such a high goal for next month. I may set 40 hr (2400 minute) goal.

Good morning.

sum, that's a lot of exercise, wow!

zumba, what's up with that teacher? Yeah, I've never seen a closing that wasn't cookie cutter.

Rennie . Great job getting to the gym!

Decent weekend here, gorgeous weather. Backs of my thighs are a little sore from yard work. Did a lot of cooking last night, made a purée of chickpeas and roasted acorn squash with lemon and sriracha. Sort of a hummus but without the sesame; a rhubarb compote to put in oatmeal; and a tomato, roasted acorn squash, roasted red pepper soup. All without recipes; I was feeling daring! The red peppers and acorn squash had been staring me down for awhile, had to do something!

Thanks Cattails. I'm working at practicing better coping mechanisms (instead of random eating), hopefully I can get the hang of it!

Heidi - as usual, your food sounds delish!

Good morning! I am sore from yard work too Heidi. I had to get 3 hrs in yesterday because it is supposed to rain most of this week. I still have a long hedge along the driveway to trim for the first time of the season but I got our smaller hedge done and the yard mowed/trimmed around edges.

Last year I sold a ton of old stuff through a local buy/sell/trade group and my porch is piled up with more stuff to sell this year. I've got a load for Goodwill too. Spring decluttering!

Well, I managed to still have a loss this week despite 3 off plan meals over the weekend so I'm happy. If it's like the last couple weeks I will have a whoosh tomorrow. It always happens right after my official weekly weigh in, LOL! My weight loss is slowing some but I'm going to ride this no counting, no exercise train as long as I can!

Thanks Sum :), Sum question (can I do another day today or do you not recommend it?) I logged my meals into MFP and the calories still aren't that much higher than yesterday. WOW 3000 minutes way to go :high: Water weight is just evil. I hope it goes away soon :) LOL on the diaper, that's how I feel when I eat too many carbs, I go to the bathroom so much :)

Thanks Heidi :) ... you should write a cookbook :) Start taking pictures and jotting down your steps :)

Hi Michelle :hug:

Shannon good job on your weigh in :) You're doing great :) LOL why is it that the day of your(our) weigh in is always high and the next day is lower :dizzy: My end of the month is usually like that also.

Well yesterday's eating plan and treadmill time did the trick. I still went over but I lost the bloat and am back to my 162 that I was on the 7th so I am happy. Two pounds to lose by 4/30 to make my (birthday 4/14/14) goal :crossed: My ticker is finally accurate :)

I would not do two low calorie days in a row, Rennie! You may get really hungry and it will backfire on you. I like the 5:2 plan. I like IF period. Nice job on your weight loss, Rennie! I bet it was a relief to see that 162 again! -- Fasting always cuts my bad eating cycle; I hope it does the same for you!

Shannonsnail You are doing awesome!

Heidi Your food sounds amazing! -- I saw a flower store called New Leaf, I thought of you!

Thanks Sum for the quick reply. I will re-do the meals for today. It was definitely a relief to see that number but tell me why 161 is hiding from me :lol: I hope it does the same for me also :)

Hello all..

Today is a killer day for me..three classes to teach and my son has a violin lesson wedged in there....hope I can get supper made and served in time for me not to be late for my evening class!

Scale was a little over 151 today, I thought it would be higher given i had fast food yesterday on my break at school...(the power bar and almonds I packed were just NOT cutting it)....I guess those fast food salads aren't so bad after all....even with their crappy dressing....

I am doing a IF diet of sorts, eating within a five or six hour period in the day. Not so good so far, I caved and had two chocolate eclairs that I bought today when i went grocery shopping (I get my kids back today and like to have snacks for them) Not a cool move, I am hopeless..but a binge would have been the WHOLE box so I'm not going to slap myself around...i think I did that enough for now.....

dinner is going to be chicken and spinach.

and Im OFF and RUNNING....it is a gorgeous day out...sat out for a little while and watched the puppy sniff grass and try and eat dandelion flowers...it is the little things that make me happy :)

I think we all need to go to Newleafs house for dinner.....:)