Hi chickies!
On my way out for work, just getting home from work and hopefully eating and sleeping before it starts all over again tomorrow. Sorry I haven't been around. I havent been OP much either. Trying to be good though. I just havent had the time. 12 more sleeps and the chaos will be over and we can all sit back and enjoy our families and holidays. Things will be easier then...
I'm around too. I keep thinking I will have time for a long post and then I don't. Things are generally going ok with me. I am trying to finish up the Christmas cards and am behind! I have never been good with that kind of thing, but then there is always room for improvement! I feel better about being on track again. I guess we will see if my feeling is justified tomorrow as it is weigh in day for me.
Annie, I know you asked about things at home with my BF. They are somewhat stable at the moment. He has found a counselor for us to see and he saw him alone last week and will again this week. After that we will go together. At this point I haven't changed my mind. But, I am trying not to be completely closed to the idea, then what would be the point of going to counseling?
If, as Forrest Gump said, "Life is like a box of chocolates" then I just ate half of life!
Yes, I ate half a box of chocolate.
At this point I am trying to figure out why it happened:
1) There was a stupid box of chocolate in the house. It's been there for weeks! Note to self: next time the neighbors come around trying to raise money for a kid's school or program, offer to just write a check.
2) Lingering stress. I don't think my vacation last week really helped me get over the stresses I've been feeling. In fact, the past few days, it's been worse.
3) I've been eating some sweets lately and not restricting as much as I used to. That might set up cravings!
4) The feeling that I'm not trying to "lose" but just maintain? Some kind of complacency?? I don't know exactly why my defenses were down today...
So, I don't completely know why I did it, but I have some ideas. But I did write it down -- I've owned it. I took the dogs for a walk, and I booked a massage for Friday to help with the stress!!!
Heather, I just wanted to say how much I admire you and your attitude. I think that your decision to just maintain for a bit and give yourself those few extra calories is a good one. Especially since you are so up-front about it. You aren't just "quitting", you are working at it just as hard as you did before, just with a different goal in mind. You never whine and never complain. You always take charge and own up to it when you stumble. I'd gripe about that candy - you simply admit it and try to see the reason behind it.
My own "goal" weight is also still "overweight", but not obese. I keep saying I'd like to be 170, where the "charts" say I should be. Most people I know are horrified at the thought of me losing another 60 or 70 lbs. Really, that includes me. I can't even begin to imagine myself at that weight. 190 is the lowest weight I remember in my entire life. So when I get to 190...then I'll rethink it and see if I still want to go lower.
I'm quite sure that this maintenance phase will be just that and that you will know when it's time to finish what you started. You are truely an inspiring person.
Just a quick post to say I gained at my weighin today. 2.2 pounds. That's OK, I know I really have not been on plan. I am going to be OP this week though and it will be the first time in a long time. I can do this.
Now, off to bed so I can get up early for exercise. See you all tomorrow!
as of today i am back on plan. i like the new WW points system. its more personally catered. its pretty neat.
other than that. i have started finals this week. one down 2 to go next week. and i get to write 2 papers. one on Pink Floyd - the wall and one on the movie Mean Girls. i love being a film major
*sigh* im way over my start weight. i will not wait for the new years to take control of this monster and make something happen. no more excuses
