Nancy-yes there are many things I can’t do. I can do anything, if I can sit down to do it. Right now the one thing I can’t seem to do is fall into a routine. I keep trying to tell myself that I am getting used to a new husband, a new house, a new town, and a new country, and should cut myself a break. I’m afraid to though. I am afraid to slide. I am so afraid of becoming immobile again. I have to be careful that the fear doesn’t become a self fulfilling prophecy by causing emotional eating. I seem to need more sleep here. I’m not depressed, I just seem tired. It’s not really a physical fatigue, although I am also worn out physically a lot of days, it is more of a mental fatigue born of so many new things all at once. Right now I am I trying to just maintain, and keep my head above water.
Amber-That’s just your body replacing a few pounds of fat with a few pounds of muscle. A pound of each obviously weighs the same, but the muscle is denser and takes up less space in our drawers.
Kayley-I do have a pedometer, a really expensive one, I just need to reset it. I keep knocking it out of whack. I’m going to look around to see what kind of exercise I can do. I remember in the beginning all I could do was 5 minutes a day of scissor kicks while lying in bed. I don’t have the time to do 1400 sit ups a day which is what I got up to right before I started walking again. So, I’m off to figure out what I want to commit to.
Garnet-Just keep getting back on the horse. I have been bloodied, and bent many times, but I haven’t given up this time. That’s the difference.
Christine-I did fly this time. It was 4 ½ hours to Vegas and then 4 ½ hours to Edmonton. After the 4 ½ day one way trip on the greyhound bus in October, I was temporarily cured of my fear of flying. Right now he is in a meeting with the Archbishop to work out a deal for us to be chaperone for a group of teenagers going to Rome. I can’t leave the country until my immigration stuff goes through, but he is already wheeling and dealing for the fall. I’ll find someone to give me a prescription of something to knock me out for the trip.
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