Sharon -- Great question about the fat suit. I never made it up to 350, but honestly, I feel mostly anonymous being fat in the US. In Asia it was a different matter -- statistically speaking I WAS fatter than most everybody else, and I did get stared at. Then again, esp in China, most white people get stared at. Anyway, perhaps people are making comments, but I really never hear them. I may be discriminated against in more subtle ways, but I have the job I want and a house and a nice car... thanks for starting that thread, Jen!
Rabidstoat -- Days like that really suck. Maybe try to take a deep breath and start new in the morning! I'm trying to learn from you for when I travel!
Brandnewme -- Congrats on the wedding!! That's great! But tough not to see your hubby!
ALison -- I was curious when you said you were cleaning your garden for your dog...? Do tell!
Lori & Sheri -- Congrats on the losses ... my scale doesn't do ounces, but I know if I buy another I'll weigh more (mine is consistently low), so I live with it! It's windy here too, Lori. Feels like the roof is gonna just rip off the house!
Catherine cracked me up too with her "in the parlor" comment.
Finally, after several days of struggling and mini-binges, I had a solid day yesterday, where I was able to indulge a little, totally on plan, and then stop and stay under my limit for the day. I ended up exercising in the evening, which is turning out to be my danger time, so maybe that helped...
Hola, chicas! I missed a whole thread here Just had to pop in and mention that even though I wasn't posting so regularly, I have been reading everything!
As for the fat suit, I have been overweight my whole life and have never been blatantly ridiculed in public (except as a child in school, but children can be so cruel). I have had an occasional negative experience here and there, but maybe I just don't know how much better thin people get treated since I have never been thin, so I have no basis for comparison.
On the dieting front, I am SO hungry today! I don't know what has gotten into me! I haven't been exercising more than usual, it's not TOM, and I haven't been eating less than usual (average of about 1846 calories a day over the past week according to my Fitday). Normally, I would say EAT if I'm hungry because you're usually hungry for a reason (your body knows what it needs), but my scale is already up a bit this week, so I don't want to keep eating! ARGH! So far today, I have had strawberries, peaches, a Special K bar, oatmeal, and a 100-calorie pack of Oreo crisps, and it's not even lunch time yet! I know I haven't had much protein, but this is no different from what I've been eating every day for weeks, and I haven't been hungry like this every day. Who knows...
Jill -- I have days like that sometimes too and have no idea why one day an amount of food is fine and others, not enough! maybe have something else to drink? I'm thinking a cup of tea sounds good right now -- it's SNOWING here!
Well TOM came today so hopefully that explains why I have been wanting to eat so much the past couple days...I am still eating healthy foods but just wanting to eat constantly...........Uggghhhh!! I am doing good today though. I am going to Chattanooga, TN. on Friday to see my best friend of 17 years...we have known each other since middle school. Anyways we haven't seen each other since last summer so I am looking forward to it. She hasn't seen me since I have lost weight...hopefully she will notice. Hang in there girls!!! I know it is gonna be tough these next two months will the holidays.
Brandnewme--Congrats on getting married...sorry you all aren't able to spend as much time together as you all use to but atleast you can appreciate the time that you all do spend together.
Catherine--Sounds like you are gonna be busy with paperwork for awhile...atleast it is all worth it.
Jen--Glad to know that you are back on track...I have had a few rough days myself....We can do this!!
Lori--Congrats on the 2.8 pound loss!!! WOO HOO!!!
Wyllen--I want snow here...send it this way....we haven't had snow in years in Alabama. My son has been dying to make a snowman and I told him maybe this will be the year that I get snow.
Well, I've successfully cured my hunger. After the strawberries, peaches, Special K bar, Oreo crisps, oatmeal, can of coke zero, and 2 bottles of water, I was still feeling hungry! So for lunch, I had a slice of cheese pizza and a small salad The other option in the cafeteria today was taco salad bar, so I am glad I steered clear of that (even though the chips and cheese and sour cream looked really yummy...). Anyway, I've now successfully eaten about 1450 calories today, and it's not even 1pm yet Hope Jeff likes water and lettuce for dinner
So, I have successfully (though not sensibly) cured the hunger problem, but now I feel SO tired! Can we say sugar crash? Not only did I have plenty of carbs in the pizza crust (which was neither thick nor thin, kinda in between--Chicago, maybe? ), but I also had regular honey mustard dressing on my salad Ahh well, c'est la vie. Now I REALLY don't want to weigh in at TOPS tomorrow night!! QUICK, someone give me an excuse to miss the meeting
Uh oh, is something going around? I think I'm eating everything that doesn't bite back the last few days. Help! I've also skipped going to the gym today, and I fully plan to skip it again tomorrow. I think I'm feeling sorry for myself since my hubby works so much. I should probably be feeling sorry for him, right?
Hello chickie poo's . Long time no post. Thank you deeply for all the empathy poured out to me for my last post about my neices. UPDATE: I still have the 3 neices and now I have their sister too. SO my poor boys are trying to survive with 4 new women in the 2 bedroom 1 bathroom home! !! Boy, that bathroom door is getting knocked on so much I think it has grooves in it now...lol . But we are trudging along. The mom was my brothers girl friend. They have been apart for 4 years so she's quite a stranger to me. This is all about the girls. *Child Welfare is trying to get her to get back on track so she can have her girls back, but a this point it looks like she's not interested in anymore than causeing drama for us all . *CW is trying to help me find a biggger home to rent and get some money to help us out. at this point my dear sweet hubby is doing all the support work for all 8 of us. We've had the girls for 2 1/2 months with no income assistance. I have to get a foster certification in order to get any help. The *CW has been so great at trying to pull all the strings and pooling the resources available to help us make this work out. Thats just the money stressers, the emotional distress around here runs close to maximum most all waking hours. I can feel each hair as it turns gray...lol God is holding us together as the tests come at us.
WOW such great news running around in here. CONGRATES to all the weight losses and a NEW HUBBY? that is soooo awesome. I have to find my way here more frequently because you all make me feel so happy for each of you. It helps me see out side my own box .
My own weight struggles contiune . I still haven't got to get back to my swimming. It seems every time I deside I'm going, something or some one changes my plans for me . I try to keep the food stuff under some kind of control. I have not lost any more but I have not gained either. YEAH! I will never give up but boy is it tough.
ENJOY YOU DAY . HUG YOUR FAMILY . PRAY IF ITS IN YOUR HEART THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS ALLOWING ME TO PEEK IN.
Sheri-I can use all the friends I can get. I isolated myself so much when I was at my heaviest, and I just didn’t have friends for a long time. I have almost forgotten how to make them. My fiancé has a group of guys he hangs out with, and I loved getting to know them when visiting up there. I have 5 older brothers, raised two foster sons, and have been in two male dominated professions. Hanging with guys is about all I know. It would be nice having girl friends again. I haven’t had any since my college dorm days.
Ammi-I would help immigrants fill out the same paperwork that I am filling out I guess. There are many who are there on student visas who marry natives and want to be able to stay when their visa expire. I’m sure there are many illegals as well. I just don’t have the courage to try to overstay a visa or lie to get a student visa. I also have insurance issues that only get handled properly with immigrant status. Thanks for the compliment on my writing. It is nice to know that all that schooling is getting used for something productive.
Mom-When downloading my forms and instructions, I saw what they require in Canada for adopted children. Yikes. The instructions were 40 pages long.
Amylizmc-I think you are right. It was designing women when their crazy brother got released from the mental hospital.
Brandnewme-Welcome back. Every AWOL chick is missed and prayed about. Congrats on your marriage. Mine is 2 months from today, and I haven’t started my gown yet. I’m convinced that I’m going to be in sneakers and skivvies for the big day.
Voodoo-I didn’t see the show, but I have suffered that type of thing many times. It may be an American thing, or just because I was so large that I was shocking.
shadiepurple, wow you have a lot on your plate right now and I can relate to what you are going through (i am a foster parent too). I am available if you ever need support or an understanding shoulder to lean on.
Catherine,
You just let me know when you get here and we will go have coffee and I will tell you all about your beautiful new home. It will be a real change from Florida. But it is a pretty city and the river valley has great trails for walking.
I feel like all I ever do is hang out with guys too with my hubby and 2 sons. I need more females around me!
As for the paperwork, that must be a special Canadian thing as every Government department from the city to provincial to federal seem to think that every time a person coughs they need to fill out a form.
Jill:
No Excuses!!! The only way we can get through this is to own up to what we do..good, bad or otherwise!!! One bad day is not going to be your entire undoing. If you have come this far and are now conscious of your choices..then that is a phenomenal first step! Go to TOPS...own your WI results and get back to doing it the way you know it should be done!!! We all have faith and confidence in you!!!
Hello everyone,
I haven't been posting much just reading your post. I'm Angelia and I am hoping to get to know everyone. I need all the help I can get. I haven't lost any weight yet. I want to count calories and have started doing it a little bit at a time. I also have cut down on sugar. You know what the hardest thing for me to do is, not eat at night. After I have dinner or while I am making dinner I want to eat everything. Sometimes I just have a little bite of something, but when you have a bite of everything it doesn't do you any good.
About the comments people make: I haven't been overweight my whole life just since I graduated hight school in 1996. I notice when I am at work (One of my jobs is at a Grocery Store) I get made fun of allot by my costumer's. It really hurts that people don't care about other people's feelings. I do my best to ignore them and make sure they don't see it bothers me, but when I go in my office I find myself crying allot. I shouldn't let it bother me, but I can't help it, it does.
Angelia-When I cook, I chew a big wad of sugar free gum. I am never tempted to sample or graze. I can still taste the back of a spoon just for seasoning, but can't put spoonfuls in there. I don't attempt to not eat after dinner. I follow the 7 habits of highly effective weight loss maintainers, and one of them is to eat 5 smaller meals a day. When I start saying I can't have something, that's when all **** breaks loose. I find eating about an hour before bed helps me sleep too. I eat an apple or have a broth based soup. I have some 100 calorie French onion with about 50 calories of fat free croutons on top. I think the reason that the 5 meals a day works is that I am never hungry. When I first started trying to cut down, I made big pots of turkey chili or spaghetti, and only ate a large coffee cup full every hour. By the end of six weeks, I was down to a small coffee cup every 3-4 hours. I was able to shrink my stomach while still taking in as many calories as I was used to. It fooled my body, and since I had suffered from horrible wracking hiccups in the past when trying to diet and my stomach was empty, I had to come up with something. I saw a story about gastric bypass, and this lady said she could only eat a coffee cup full of food after the surgery, so that’s what gave me the idea.
What a day today has been. We had to take the girls to an orthodontist to see if they need braces. It turns out that they both do. After that we went for a meal at the Pizza Hut, yep another unplanned treat, but it's ok, I haven't eaten anything bad since. But the frown above is because by the time we left the Pizza Hut I was sneezing and sniffling, and now I have a full fledged cold and feel lousy I really hate colds. So I shall quickly reply to a few posts now, and then it's off to bed for me.
Angelia - hello and welcome. Glad you have written a post. This is the most awesome place with wonderful supportive women. It really does help to have such great people who know exactly what we are going through.
I am sorry that you get ignorant people upsetting you by their rude remarks about you being overweight. Some people just don't have the brains they were born with. Try not to let them upset you, just think of them as the simple minded ignoramuses that they are, and pity them for that!
Sheri and Catherine - I am so envious that you two are going to live close enough to meet up for coffee. I would love to join you both And Catherine, thanks for explaining about the volunteer work you would be doing, I am sure your help will be invaluable!!
Shadiepurple - I love your posts, they are always so colourful and a good read. I think you are doing great with just maintaining your weight. With all that is going on in your life right now you could be forgiven for just forgetting about dieting altogether and just concentrating totally on those grey hairs you are getting lol. Seriously though it does sound like you have a lot on your plate now (and not one calorie lol) and it must be so difficult to have the extra mouths to feed and look after with no help from the goverment or anything. Are you applying for foster parent status now, or perhaps you could adopt the children if their mum has no intention of getting them back? I sure do hope you can find somewhere bigger to live and get some financial assistance soon!
Amy - sorry you have been having a few days where you have been eating a lot. I am sure you will get back on track though, I think we all need time out from dieting especially when we know we have such a long journey ahead of us. Enjoy your days off, just don't let them carry on for too long! You'll be fine.
Jill - the same thing I said to Amy I can say to you. Forgive yourself for any bad days. We all have them, we just have to remember to get back on track before we give up the diet altogether. I know how committed you are to getting your weight off, so you won't quit!!
Andrea - I hope your visit with your friend goes really well and I am sure she will notice your weight loss and be so happy for you!!
Wyllen - good for you for having your first solid day back on track and for exercising too. It's great when you get back in control again isn't it. I had a perfect day yesterday, and was really good today except for the pizza lol. I will be good again tomorrow for sure.
Rabidstoat - so sorry to hear that you were having a miserable day and that you overate. It's an awful feeling when you give in, but you have to remember that as long as you get back on track as soon as you can then you are still in control.
How is your kitty, I hope it's much better now?
Sharon (voodoo) - sounds to me like although you can't make healthy food choices until you go shopping, you are at least still exercising and I am sure that is really going to make a difference when you weigh next. I bet you will still have a loss! I was out all day today, so sorry we didn't get to chat. If I am well enough I will look out for you tomorrow.
I have to say I haven't had any grief from people about being fat. Oh once some guy across the road shouted 'hey look at the size on that'. I don't know if he was referring to me, but being paranoid I thought it could have been aimed at me. Other than that no bad comments, and I don't look 'hard' lol. I think the comments that hurt me most are ones that aren't intended to hurt, and it's from little kids. When they say to their mums, 'mum, how come that lady is so fat' it just hits home just how big I must look. Out of the mouths of babes and all!!
Brandnewme - welcome back and congratulations on your getting married You said you eloped, where did you go to get married, anywhere exciting like Vegas??
Don't beat yourself up about being off your diet for a while, just take those babysteps towards getting back in control and soon you will be back on the right track. Baby steps are always better than just totally giving up, and you still have some control which is brilliant! You can do it, believe me, you really can.
Lori - that's too funny about me being a fruitcake and you being the whole bakery. You have such a way with words
Congrats again on the weight loss this week, you are doing brilliantly
Ok that's it, I have to get a hot drink, take some tablets and go to sleep. Take care all, and I hope everybody is well and happy.
I'm not upset that I'm having a bad day. I am fully justified in having a bad day because I am insanely hungry! I'm just confused as to why I feel so hungry all of a sudden. I didn't even do too badly overall--at least under 2500 calories for the day. I just wish I weren't feeling so...empty, ya know? I eat something, and 5 minutes later, I want a big juicy burger! Aah, well, I'll work through it...
Just had to pop in and mention that even though I wasn't posting so regularly, I have been reading everything!
Hang in there girls!!! I know it is gonna be tough these next two months will the holidays. 
The other option in the cafeteria today was taco salad bar, so I am glad I steered clear of that (even though the chips and cheese and sour cream looked really yummy...). Anyway, I've now successfully eaten about 1450 calories today, and it's not even 1pm yet 
), but I also had regular honey mustard dressing on my salad 
Ahh well, c'est la vie. Now I REALLY don't want to weigh in at TOPS tomorrow night!! QUICK, someone give me an excuse to miss the meeting 
. Long time no post. Thank you deeply for all the empathy 
poured out to me for my last post about my neices. UPDATE: I still have the 3 neices and now I have their sister too. SO my poor boys are trying to survive with 4 new women in the 2 bedroom 1 bathroom home! 
!! Boy, that bathroom door is getting knocked on so much I think it has grooves in it now...lol 
. But we are trudging along. The mom was my brothers girl friend. They have been apart for 4 years so she's quite a stranger to me. This is all about the girls. *Child Welfare is trying to get her to get back on track so she can have her girls back, but a this point it looks like she's not interested in anymore than causeing drama for us all 
. *CW is trying to help me find a biggger home to rent and get some money to help us out. at this point my dear sweet hubby is doing all the support work for all 8 of us. We've had the girls for 2 1/2 months with 
no income assistance. I have to get a foster certification in order to get any help. The *CW has been so great 
at trying to pull all the strings and pooling the resources available to help us make this work out. Thats just the money stressers, 
the emotional distress around here runs close to maximum most all waking hours. I can feel each hair as it turns gray...lol God is holding us together as the tests come at us.
WOW such great news running around in here. 
CONGRATES to all the weight losses and a NEW HUBBY? 
that is soooo awesome. I have to find my way here more frequently because you all make me feel so happy for each of you. It helps me see out side my own box 
.
. I still haven't got to get back to my swimming. It seems every time I deside I'm going, something or some one changes my plans for me 
. I try to keep the food stuff under some kind of control. I have not lost any more but I have not gained either. 
YEAH! I will never give up but boy is it tough.
. HUG YOUR FAMILY 
THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS ALLOWING ME TO PEEK IN.
and I will tell you all about your beautiful new home. It will be a real change from Florida. But it is a pretty city and the river valley has great trails for walking.
You said you eloped, where did you go to get married, anywhere exciting like Vegas??
