Hey ladies, I'm basically just checking in for the 2x2 ending. I've been up and down and up and down these past two weeks. I don't know the exact date that the challenge started but on Feb 1st I was 340 or so.. and even though I went down to 335 it seems I'm back up at to 337. Its still a 3 pound loss so I'll take it. I know I'm weighing random times and I dont know if that plays in so much but, I'm not going to complain! 3 pounds for this past 2x2 challenge!
I don't know if I'm going to sign up for this next 2x2 or not. I noticed that with the impending "weigh in" I was constantly weighing myself but not staying really focused. I think I'll still try to weigh in with you gals when it ends but I think I'm gonna keep my mind focused on the further goal
I've kinda had a revelation last night.. something that I plan to write in my journal later, that I think will help me with my lack of motivation... its a mindset thing and a responsibility thing so hopefully its me checking into reality. To give the "gist" of it.. I think I've been sticking with the "I don't wanna" mindset that I had growing up with my parents.. The "I don't care whats best for me, I don't wanna just because you told me to do it and I want to make you angry".. I think I still feel that way often.. rebellling against myself and others with my lack of determination. Eehh! Ill have to write about it in my personal journal
But after thinking that. .I did tons of crunches, situps, and leg lifts last night.. then this morning I woke up at 8am, ate my healthy oatmeal, worked out before lunch, ate a healthy lunch, had a healthy dinner... and I plan on working out again tonight. I did 2miles earlier and I hope to do another 2 this evening.
I'm iffy about taking "energy" "diet" pills, I've really considered it but I think I still might try to find other healthier ways to get energy.. like hot green tea in the morning, showering in the morning (which I loathe!), or other things. I'm trying! But I definitely need to find a source of more energy.
Okay, Ill stop rambling.. I'm in the middle of homework thats due by midnight and I'm just trying to distract myself :P I'll do replies tomorrow! Hope you are all well!
300+ and Ready To Try Again.... 653
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Drum Roll Puh-leeze...
However, it didn't kill the reservations I had made to pamper James for his birthday. We had fun. Yesterday and today I'm paying for it 
I must admit though... dayquil is awesome. Cleared me out and made my aches go away. I weighed in this morning. 354lbs, down 4 pounds, but I think was because I was sick and really not eating much. Mostly was eating just liquidy foods like soup and softer foods.
