Hello everyone! I stumbled across this forum while trying to search for bras that would possibly be big enough for me. Found a thread that had me nodding my head in agreement to full out giggling and saying "yes, that describes me exactly!". I apologize if this gets too long (I feel it might) so feel free to skip it. I won't be offended
I weigh 350, but I will say 355 because the scale easily goes 10lbs in either direction. When I was thinner (300lbs maybe) I managed to go down to 210lbs. I don't think I really appreciated or understand the accomplishment that I had done, but when winter came that year, I stopped walked because it was too cold outside. Slowly over the years, weight crept back on. And now that I am at the heaviest I've ever been, I have two challenges in addition to lose weight.
I suffer from chronic migraines and daily headaches. I also suffer from spondylolisthesis grade 1. I lost my job because of both of my health conditions, and I am feeling I have a good day if I can stand more than 20 minutes without burning pain in my back do to the spondy. Walking is a luxury that I feel I've lost. I used to walk miles for pleasure, not exercise. Most days I sit in a chair and look out my slider feeling sorry for myself.
I've tried losing weight, even a small amount but I cannot get the scale to budge. I've counted calories and only at 1200 for a month. Nothing. Not a single pound. I've had my thyroid checked, double checked, and quadruple checked. It's all on me. Eating healthy is very difficult as living on my husband's income isn't easy. Cheap food is bad for you. But, I want to change. I need this change.
The funny thing is, I was never taught to love myself. When I was 18, I was a size 18 and I loathed myself so much. I cried at my reflection. I kinda of laugh now at how much I hated myself then when I that size. I thought I was the size of an elephant back then. Ha, irony at it's best I suppose.
But here I am, trying. I have a friend that is gorgeous and a little on the heavy side and can lose weight easy. She used to be my walking buddy when we lived closer. We still get together for walks, but it is very rare for me. We went for a 3 mile hike through the woods the other day; it was the longest I walked in years and I am paying for it today. Charly horses, back pain...but it was fun.
I guess I just don't know how to start or even find a morsel of motivation. Losing weight is hard to do on your own, and even more difficult if you have a stubborn (and overweight) spouse who isn't on the weight-loss mindset. How do you lose weight when you cannot walk?
Down this road again with new challenges
