Thanks for all of the encouraging responses, everyone. I'm glad if I'm able to motivate others along the way, too.
cincorn, you hit the nail on the head regarding not being old enough to feel like a "virtual invalid". I'm a very determined person, so I push myself perhaps harder than someone my size should. I don't like to take "can't" for an answer.
2fat2jump... You just narrated my inner monologue for a lot of things I won't let myself do. For everything that I do push myself into, there are other things I quietly avoid, as well. Really, it did get much worse as I hit the 300s. I think we all have points where our bodies just can't cope anymore. I have been overweight all my life, so I think my muscles are used to hauling around all this extra weight, but as I got into the mid 300's, it started saying "Enough is Enough" and I have been having back and shoulder problems. (Which of course become excuses to avoid further physical activity.) But even in the 300s, there are things we CAN do. Focus on that, and take a little risk every now and then.
Ubee - I have pictures from Jamaica as my computer wallpaper, but printing one to put on my fridge would be a great idea, as well!
jessien, thanks for sharing such a personal story. I think I had given up on myself at a very young age (and looking back on what I went through growing up, it's no surprise that I have a lot of baggage from my childhood). Kudos to you for making yourself vulnerable to another person. It's a very difficult thing to do.
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