I have been mostly lurking because I am embarrassed to have regained (plus gained more) and be starting over after so many months gone from the site/forum (and accountability)
another failed attempt ... sigh
but I know that I won't ever reach my goal unless I stand up and say "ok, that's what happened, now here is where i am going from now on ... "
so I'm gonna get being embarrassed over with, - I really count on the support from the threads and people here, who understand and give helpful advice because they have been there
hello again everyone and hi to all the people i haven't met yet!



