Hey there! I'm on my second day too. I've been where you are now for a long time. I think the REASON we wind up there is that we forget our worth...we forget to love ourselves. I made the decision to lose weight for good "this time" because I have four children who need their mother to be fit enough to take care of them; healthy enough to live as long as they need me! As long as I was giving up on myself (letting myself go just because it was easier to eat crapfood) I was also giving up on them.
It's a really hard thing to "switch" into taking-good-care-of-yourself mode when you've spent most your life out of it. The switch will be much easier (I believe) if you do some self reflecting about how WORTH IT you really are...that you really do love yourself and you deserve the life you are (at the moment) missing out on becuase of your over-weight.
I'm committing to this because not only does my family deserve to have the best mother/wife possible, but also because I just turned 40...people tell me I'm beautiful (that's so hard to share) but it's true, and I just feel like I'm wasting it, being as heavy as I am right now! I could be FABULOUS if I was my ideal weight, so what am I waiting for right? (Actually, not waiting anymore but why did I wait so long?!)
I've always had trouble seeing my own self worth and loving myself enough to really take care of myself in a way that maintained a healthy weight. The ill effects of that lifestyle have given me an incentive to change. I know once I am feeling better and moving more, my entire family will reap the rewards.
I hope my 'two-cents' has helped...and thank you for letting me share...it feels like we're in it together and that's what it's all about!