I just came across your post and you are doing great. I have a long weigh to go too...lol. My highest weight was 750 pounds. I diet my way down to 502, but then I slipped and started eating foods I shouldn't. I ate a ton of chocolate on Easter sunday. The next day I weighed and I was back up to 534 pounds. That same day (April 9, 2007) I started Medifast. Since then I have lost another 93 pounds making my total weight loss 307 pounds. As of today I weigh 443 pounds now and I am finally over half way to goal, so I have lost more weight now than I need to lose.
Hello friends and Hello Tarra! I am back online now. Still keeping on my quest for good health and aiming for goal weight. One good thing is that I amd my husband has joined the YMCA and we have been very faithful in going and working hard there. We have a weight bareing workout and then we go and do Aquatics which is a cardio arobic workout in the swimming pool! I am still so happy that I can do it! I am feeling stonger and stonger all the time. I will soon be completely out of my wheelchair and off my oxygen for good! Praise GOD!!!!!!!!!!! Antone still around that remembers me? drop me a line in here so I know you are still alive and kickin! I had to do without a computer for so long. I am glad I can be back here with you all, whom I dearly love and thought about often! I have to update, but have to go for now. Will be back soon! Tarra I hope you are still around and keep on keeping on. write me and let me know how you are doing dear. Love in Christ, Gwyn
Oh Thank you so much Julia!
That meant so much to me to hear you say that to me. God Be With You Friend! God Bless You!
Keep poping in and we can encourage each other!
Love in Christ, Gwyn
My 5 year old Grandson called and said something really wonderful to me! He said, "Grammy, I want to tell you something! Grammy I love you more then I love anybody in the whole wheerrld! (world) Oh how he made me feel so loved and wanted.
Just popping in to see what is going on today. Love in Christ, Gwyn
I love the words coming out of the mouths of babes. My DD who is 4 yrs old. Was helping me work out yesterday. And every few minutes she would turn around and patty my tummy saying "See Mommy the fat is disapearing!...You go Gurl!" I could hardly fininh for laughing so hard. Good thing laughing burns about 50 cal per 15 min or something crazy like that LOL.
Thank you all for your kindness and love. I truly felt your love in your little notes to me. It meant so much to me. Thanks a million! Things have been crazy! I will say that I have had many things on my plate lately and it hasn't been food. Although I will admit that through all of the emotional drama and trauma, I have at times used food to sedate or medicate myself. I know it when I am doing it and Praise God for all of the ways of escape that He makes for me. WednesdayMorning 04/10/2008at 8:00 am in the morning I called my daughter Sheila to see if she was ready for me to pick her up, to take her to her appointment with the St. Joe township trustee. (She was fired from her job in 2007 and it was a job that she really loved doing. She is a very good pet groomer, but because of her mental health she was not able to maintain proper relationships with her employers. This also breaks my heart, because I know how very good she is at her job. She loves animals and treats them like newborn babies. I know she truly loved that job.) Anyway while on the phone with her I noticed that her speech was all slurred and her disposition was horrible! I immediately went to get her and when she came out to the car she was stumbling and walking sideways and falling over her feet. She kept saying she was seeing double and couldn't think straight. She said that she woke up with a very sharp and intense headache and fell out of her bed hitting her head. She said, that she had been running into walls and falling down. I took her to her appointment and after several hours she was still stumbling and had a very pronounced slur in her speech. I then took her to the emergency room at Dupont hospital. They did a c-t on her head and could see nothing. They found no evidence of substance or alcohol abuse. I know my daughter does not drink nor does she use drugs. Other then the ones that are prescribed to her by her physicians. They then did a mental health assessment and wanted to admit her, but she refused! As time passed in the hospital her speech became better but as she came up out of the stupor she was becoming more and more agitated and belligerent. She began focusing her anger on me and was very hostile toward me and the nursing and doctor staff. She was even making suicidal comments and remarks. She told me, "Mom if you knew the thoughts that are going through my head, you would be dead! I went out and reported this to the E.R. staff and they still chose to release her from the hospital. When they were bringing in her discharge papers, she became so belligerent with me that I asked my daughter in law if she would take her home. I left. My daughter in law "Anna" told me that she got so far out of hand with the hospital staff, that they called their security guards and had her escorted out of the hospital!!!!!!!!! Thursday 04/10/2008 My daughter in law called me and told me that a CIT Sheriff, called her and asked her to come and follow him to the hospital to admit Sheila into in patient care. He told her that Sheila's Doctor called the CIT Sheriff (CIT is a law officer trained and specializing in the care and handling of persons who are mentally ill.) and asked them to go and pick Sheila up at her house and take her to the hospital to admit her for comprehensive psychiatric care. They took her and Anna stayed with her at the hospital. For some unknown ungodly reason the hospital released her! Anna took her home. After 4 hours Sheila became extremely belligerent and out of control, threatened to take her life by taking a full bottle of medication! Her brother who lives with her took it away and she then physically attacked him and began smashing and breaking things, she then called the police and told them that, she was being attacked. They came and found the truth to be the opposite and then took her to the County Jail. I called her Physician (who is a renown psychiatrist/neurologist and is the owner and founder of a very renown clinic) and he was very upset that Sheila was released from the hospital! He was very adamant that, He personally had her admitted by the CIT Sheriff because Sheila was threatening suicide while on the phone with his office staff. He said, that he had it all set up for her to be admitted and put under comprehensive psychiatric care! THESE ARE HIS WORDS! I spoke with him that night and he was very upset that the hospital released Sheila. He said, that my daughter needed comprehensive psychiatric care! That she needed to be in inpatient care and had no idea that she had been released, and could not understand why. Please help pray her. Also she was admitted to another hospital this year on March 10th 2008 and was in patient care until March 14th 2008 Because she was trying to kill herself with a knife and was into extreme psychotic episodes. I went to court that next morning and sat there and wept and wept as I sat through case after case. Then they brought her into the inmate box with handcuffs on and my heart felt like it was dying! I wrote a letter with some of this info in it to give to the judge but the bailiff would not give it to the judge. I just sat there in my wheelchair with streams of tears running and running and running. For hours. When my daughter was asked how she would plea, she made it very clear that she didn't understand what she was being charged with. The judge asked her if she needed a lawyer and she said, I will get my own lawyer, he asked her if she had a job and she said, yes she did and he then asked her how much money did she make and she said, $66.00 an hour. My heart sank and the tear flow was now two raging rivers. I also was so angry because it was very clear that she was not in her right mind and not fit to stand before any judge to answer any questions pertaining to reality. Well after that I have spent day after day on the telephone trying to get help for Sheila. The Psychiatric clinic blamed the hospital and the hospital pointed their finger at the clinic. Meanwhile my daughter is still in jail. Last week the hospital and the psychiatrist got their heads together ( I think only to cover their butts!) and had me come into the hospital and sign a paper to present to a judge to have my daughter transported from the jail to the hospital where she should have been from the beginning. I went home and waited for the call. The same nurse called me back and told me that the judge had said, NO! It was my last earthly hope for her. I then began to cry out and I mean CRY OUT to GOD. He gave me PEACE, He spoke, Be Still and Know that I AM GOD. He gave me blessed assurance and peace. I then placed my dear daughter in the hands of the King of Kings! I put her into the hands of the Lord of Lords! I put her into the hands of the Judge of all Judges! He then gave me this WORD TODAY> 1 "But now listen, O Jacob, my servant,
Israel, whom I have chosen.
2 This is what the LORD says—
he who made you, who formed you in the womb,
and who will help you:
Do not be afraid, O Jacob, my servant,
Jeshurun, whom I have chosen. 3 For I will pour water on the thirsty land,
and streams on the dry ground;
I will pour out my Spirit on your offspring,
and my blessing on your descendants. 4 They will spring up like grass in a meadow,
like poplar trees by flowing streams. 5 One will say, 'I belong to the LORD ';
another will call himself by the name of Jacob;
still another will write on his hand, 'The LORD's,'
and will take the name Israel. 6 "This is what the LORD says—
Israel's King and Redeemer, the LORD Almighty:
I am the first and I am the last;
apart from me there is no God.
7 Who then is like me? Let him proclaim it.
Let him declare and lay out before me
what has happened since I established my ancient people,
and what is yet to come—
yes, let him foretell what will come. 8 Do not tremble, do not be afraid.
Did I not proclaim this and foretell it long ago?
You are my witnesses. Is there any God besides me?
No, there is no other Rock; I know not one." That is found in Isaiah 44 I am holding onto that WORD and I will not relent until He has my whole heart, and the whole hearts of my children, until it is all HIS and HIS ALONE. He is WORTHY of nothing less! This Mother shall see her 4 children, Adam, Sheila, John and Daniel loving the LORD GOD with ALL OF THEIR HEARTS! IN JESUS NAME AMEN! Sheila goes to court on Friday 04/25 I will check back in and let you know what has happened at that point in time. I am believing for healing, life and peace for my daughter. In HIS time. Peace to you my dear friends, who read my thread and post notes of encouragement and advice. I love you all and thank you all. Love in Christ, Gwyn
Hello my dear friends! Hope you are all feeling well and doing good today! Well my daughter is home and out of jail now. I have put her COMPLETLY in my Heavenly Father's Hands. I am trusting Him to care for her and all of her needs. My friend Wayne who lives in Gorgia wrote this to me today... On the day we are born a line begins
A line that represents our life
It runs the entire distance
From our date of birth----------to the date of our death
It is written as a dash on a tombstone
Date of Birth[IMG]aoladp://MA20110079-0004/AAA-ani-heartbeatline.gif[/IMG] -Date of Death
Each of us will give an account for that dash
The line of our life the line of our thinking
What we did or what we do before we flat lined
We are often presented with opportunities
To interact with others we can choose to do it with wisdom
When people have passionate views on anything
I believe God prayer and having to look reality in the face Is about the only thing that can change them No one wants to acknowledge they are wrong Especially for long periods of time or even generations That makes it almost impossible to change such intense viewpoints It arouses anger in some because they cannot accept the possibility Of being wrong or losing some position of authority
When people have had to eat their own words Most will learn to be more cautious If someone thinks his or her viewpoint Is the authority on a subject It is difficult to change that If someone thinks they have heard from God Even if it was their imagination or a demon It is very difficult change that With most of us our pride just does not want to accept Any kind of rejection either of self or of our views
If we accept God His Word the Bible as the final authority Then we have common ground by looking for agreement With several biblical witnesses to establish the truth of the matter
A person with an experience trumps the person with a theory For reality is far more certain than an assumption Those with only a theory may attempt to make you look foolish And try to void your experience because of pride Or not wanting to make a required life change if you are right
To use my family as an example of a reality We were involved in the occult before coming to Christ I worked with a man that I had told about my involvement And with objects moving by unseen hands And the struggle we had fighting demons This man ridiculed and attacked my testimony He did not believe that reality I prayed intently that God would do something To make him confront the truth that demons were real The next day he came to me crying and said something invisible Was setting on his chest that he could not move or cry out That hands were choking him during the night And that now he knew I was telling the truth God gave him a reality to replace his theory Then that man gave his life to Christ
I pray you live [IMG]aoladp://MA20110079-0004/AAA-ani-heartbeatline.gif[/IMG]with these thoughts The anointing can be intense and also be loud Yet being intense or loud does not make us right or anointed The heart is deceitful above all things and desperately wicked Who can know it What is the fruit that is produced by passionate views Will they help or hurt make better or worse Start a fight or a warfare Must I be right to have value or importance Will it matter at all when my dash is ended If it does then go for it!
Then I wrote Him back this...
Wayne, Wayne, Wayne!
I am 100% whole hearted in agreement with this message you wrote!
When my children were still very young, we were also very poor and so we often had to use our imaginations to find fun and or interesting things to do. One thing we did was drive around and find the oldest looking grave yards we could find, you know very old and abandoned ones. We made a game of finding the very oldest grave marker in the yard. We would indeed find very old ones. Some so old the lime stone face's were completely defaced and unreadable from the years of harsh Indiana weather. But there was this one! I couldn't tell you who's name was barely etched on it, I can't tell you the person's dates of birth or death. But that old limestone tombstone had a message on it and a human fist with the pointer finger pointed towards heaven. And this inscription, "One's Life Will Soon Be Past...Only What's Done For Christ Will Last..." That one saying has stuck in my head and heart for the past 20 some years!
I remember standing there as the TRUTH of it sunk in! The profound TRUTH of it! Past as in gone from this life forever and Past as in history written in a book but none the less over and done with. Realizing that it was not about me, not about my loved one's not about the poor soul's bones laying in the ground. It was... is.... and is to come... all about CHRIST! It is about His kingdom! His Honor! His Glory! His death and His resurrection! I was a young Christian Mother at the time and God spoke to me that day through that old Indiana patriots tombstone. I want to meet that saint someday when I get to glory and tell them thank you for giving God Glory even in their death, by leaving the souls of the earth that very profound message. I hope others over time have read that and were just as impressed by the totality of it's truth as I was. So in all this I just wanted to share a window in our lives again too and say thank you Wayne for GIVING GOD GLORY as you work to serve Him and Love Him with all of your heart, mind and strength!
In Christ, your sister and friend, Gwyn See you all later. Do drop me a line. I love you all and we all need each other. I am eating well and still doing well. Love you!
workout and then we go and do Aquatics which is a cardio arobic workout in the swimming pool!
I am still so happy that I can do it! I am feeling stonger and stonger all the time. I will soon be completely out of my wheelchair and off my oxygen for good!
God Be With You Friend! God Bless You!
He said, "Grammy, I want to tell you something! Grammy I love you more then I love anybody in the whole wheerrld! (world)
And every few minutes she would turn around and patty my tummy saying "See Mommy the fat is disapearing!...You go Gurl!" 
I could hardly fininh for laughing so hard. Good thing laughing burns about 50 cal per 15 min or something crazy like that LOL.
, because I know how very good she is at her job. She loves animals and treats them like newborn babies. 
She began focusing her anger on me and was very hostile toward me and the nursing and doctor staff. She was even making suicidal comments and remarks. She told me, "Mom if you knew the thoughts that are going through my head, you would be dead!
See you all later. Do drop me a line. I love you all and we all need each other. I am eating well and still doing well. Love you!