Hey everyone
I need help. I need someone to come and kick me in the butt. I need someone with duct tape to tie my hands together so I can't fill my face.
All I want to do is EAT!!!!
I have been home since....4. In 2 hours I have eaten a chicken breast, about 8 pieces of turkey bacon (40cal ea) a bran muffin and an english muffin. I did have the calories to eat what I have since I had salad and homemade root veg soup for lunch but MAN! I'm gonna be WAY over by the end of the day if I keep this up.
I bought a fresh fruit cup to snack on tonight while I watch the tube. I thought I was prepared.
I'm going to clean the closet. I hate cleaning the closet. But I hate being fat even more....
Brenda Now, you've gotten what you've asked for! Tape and a kick in the bum. Now, here's some just be sure to share it back with me. I'm feeling the same way. I've managed to stay out of the kitchen, but it's been really, really hard today. You might want to ask yourself if you're upset about something. I know I am. It's one of those things I can't control, so it's especially hard to deal with. Being on line a lot of the day has helped a lot. and we're all here to you on.
Nancy -- Sorry things are so crazy, but prioritizing yourself is an important part of this journey. I guess figuring out WHAT we want is part of the difficulty!
Brenda -- I hate those days and feel I have them more frequently lately. You'll be okay. Do what you can to limit the damage -- and distracting yourself is a great idea. Start again tomorrow!
I'm an overeater - I love food - it's a comforter, an entertainer, and a friend.
That said - I have to quit trying to kill myself with it. I have said a million times ---- I'll start tomorrow --- once I feel full enough, it'll be easy.
I'm done with that screwy thinking, I know better.
I have had two heart attacks in the past three and a half years, and the first one scared me into losing 120 lbs. Stupidly - I ate way too little to lose the weight, and went off the diet and ate like crazy thinking I was 'all better'. But truly - during the first year or so after that heart attack I was not hungry.
Then I gained almost all the weight back -- not all --- and had another heart attack. This was more serious, and scary. The details are many – but it’s time to be serious about weight loss, straight thinking, and healthy eating.
I stress about almost everything - and it's taking my life away. So I’m really trying hard to not feel responsible for everything all the time. It’s a one day at a time thing, but it’s been a breath taking release for me. When I begin to worry and feel like things are getting out of control, I just remember that God is in control and it’s not my job - it’s His.
My highest weight was in 2003 – 342lbs, lost 121 lbs and then jumped back up to 304.5. I’m down 5 lbs in the last week, and I feel better already. I’m enjoying feeling hungry again, and it does not make me crazy. I am making strides to get more exercise, counting the minutes and adding to the group total on that thread in this forum.
I appreciate all the welcomes I have received. You are all wonderful!
Well this is it, time for me to finally hit the sack. Just thought I'd come and do my last few personals before saying goodnight. Seeing as most of you live in the US or Canada I know I will wake up to another pile of posts to catch up on, good job I have some time now that I am back in the swing of things with my routine.
Brenda - I know you are eating more than you planned, but at least you aren't eating things that are really really bad. You are trying your best to be good despite contantly wanting to eat. You should give yourself a pat on the back for that and don't be so hard on yourself!
Annie - if I am a shining star here, then so are you, heck we all are, we make our own little 3FC galaxy
I hope you aren't in too much pain after the orthodontist visit. Got to say I am loving the colours you go for with the bands. Did you tell everybody here the colours you chose for Christmas
Rileydog14 - hello and I am glad you found us here. I am sorry to hear about your heart attacks, but am glad you survived to tell the tale. You have done so well in the past to lose the weight and I am sure you will do it again, and this time you will keep it off.
Alright I am ready for sleep now, so take care all and I will 'see' you all tomorrow.
Sorry I've been away so long but last week somebody sent me a virus an I had to take my tower in for repair. Just got it back today. It kind of makes me sad that someone maybe dislikes me so much that they would wish that on me or anybody else. Oh well, It's done and over I'll take my lumps and move on like I always do.
My good news is I lost 5lbs as of last Thursday.
I don't have time for personals right now I still have some E-mails to catch up on, Bye for now. Colleen
Well, I give up. I am going to bed. I haven't stopped munching all night. How big is my stomach??? I have had fruit and a bowl of all-bran and 1.5 litres of water in the hopes and dreams that I will stop. Its certainly made me full but I am afraid that I will not stop so I am heading to bed. I havent had a night like this in a long time. It is not the "stuff" that I am eating. It has all been either protien, grains, or fruit and there is lots of soda etc ing the house and I havent even touched it. Weird but I can almost look at it as almost a NSV (non scale victory for you new folks). I am making all the right choices other than the choice NOT to eat. At least I dont sleep walk and eat while I am sleeping!
Patti/riley~ you will love all the friends you make here. They are super supportive!!
Thanks, everyone, for the support and encouragement after last night's overeating. I did it agian today, though. I have at least discovered why, though--I'm getting sick. My glands are swollen and my throat is hurting, so not only am I feeling too tired and lazy to cook (so we went out for dinner tonight), but also the act of eating helps to soothe my throat Time to start pumping Zicam, Vitamin C, and Tylenol into me...as much as I HATE taking medicine and stuff, I want to ward this off as much as possible because my sister will be delivering her baby any day now, so I want to be able to hold her without fearing making her sick! I guess if she has her this week, I'll just have to wait till next weekend to see her--hopefully, the germs will have subsided by then.
Tomorrow, I will go grocery shopping and buy lots of good "sick" foods--some soup, fresh oranges, low-cal frozen pops, maybe make some sugar-free Jell-o...
Rileydog -- Thanks for sharing your stories. We're aware of how much our weight can affect our health, and yet that doesn't seem to make it easier for us to lose weight. I'm glad to hear you're feeling you're getting your life back in control. We'll be here to talk through everything!
Brenda -- I agree that this is an NSV -- eating a lot of healthy foods is better than binging on total junk.
We have built our bad habits over long time and in many respects, they have served us well. It's going to take us time to overcome them.
I had my own little blip today. For the first time in over a year, I ate an entire box of Kraft Macaroni and Cheese. It is one of my oldest and dearest comfort foods.
I ate it because of some of my own negative feelings and a need for comfort I think.
BUT, my NSV is that I didn't use it as an excuse to binge out for the rest of the evening. I ate it for dinner. Not my healthiest dinner, but dinner. I'll have a snack before bed, but I did not binge all night. I'll have eaten more than I wanted to today, but some days are going to be like that.
One step at a time! And every day is another chance to start over. Let's use them!
evening ladies, and gent
I am sorry i have been gone a couple of days, kind of losing myslef in work this week and read the latest book Eldest over the last 2 days. I really need to learn to put a book down when i start reading it though I get so caught up , ah well. glad to read and catch up on the posts. Lilion so sorry to read the conversations about food but funny too., How people try to enable us with.
Well I really need to get ready for work again, one more week of extra hours then I can slow dowen a bit.
Anna
Now, you've gotten what you've asked for! Tape and a kick in the bum. Now, here's some 
just be sure to share it back with me. I'm feeling the same way. I've managed to stay out of the kitchen, but it's been really, really hard today. You might want to ask yourself if you're upset about something. I know I am. It's one of those things I can't control, so it's especially hard to deal with. Being on line a lot of the day has helped a lot. 
and we're all here to 
you on. 
I'm done with that screwy thinking, I know better. 
I am glad you found us here. I am sorry to hear about your heart attacks, but am glad you survived to tell the tale. You have done so well in the past to lose the weight and I am sure you will do it again, and this time you will keep it off. 
Time to start pumping Zicam, Vitamin C, and Tylenol into me...as much as I HATE taking medicine and stuff, I want to ward this off as much as possible because my sister will be delivering her baby any day now, so I want to be able to hold her without fearing making her sick! I guess if she has her this week, I'll just have to wait till next weekend to see her--hopefully, the germs will have subsided by then.
