Amelbeabk, girl! Your life doesn't end after 30!! I loved my 20s, but (corona aside) I'm loving my 30s even more. I'm 31. I have the successful career, wonderful husband, beautiful house, nice car, etc. aka all the things that 20 year old me didn't have (or know she wanted tbh lol). Sure, 20 year old me was way hotter/fitter aka subjectively more attractive. But thankfully attractiveness isn't the single barometer for life success or personal value. IMO your life goals should become more lofty the older you get.

Welcome to the club!