So I ended up going out last night. I didn't get totally trashed, but I definitely had a lot to drink and was feeling crappy this morning. But that's not even why I'm mad at myself (I hardly ever drink or go out, so I've already forgiven myself for the drinking). I went out w/ a guy my boyfriend works with (he is gay, so the b/f doesn't have a problem with it, LOL).
So we went to a gay bar (is that a politically correct term to use? I don't even know). I love the place, it's lots of fun and I like that I pretty much don't have to worry about any guys hitting on me. I can just have fun and do whatever. We were dancing and talking about random who-knows-what nonsense. The guy I went there with was really great, kinda being protective and making sure he knew where I was, got me into a cab at the end of the night, called to make sure I got in my apartment building ok, etc.
After all this rambling, my point is that even though we all had a good time I feel like I probably made a fool of myself, which I hate. I guess this is what happens when someone has a lot to drink. Everyone had a good time but I can remember at least a couple of stupid things that I wish I hadn't done/said and I'm embarrassed to face this guy again. I guess my only hope is that he was too drunk to remember, LOL. And my boyfriend would never judge me (I've done stupid drunk things in front of him before and he loves me anyway, haha). But I still hope that his friend doesn't tell stories from the night out.
OH, and the one thing I forgot to mention is that my boyfriend met up with us after he got out of work, but he didn't feel like staying so he left and I told him I wanted to stay because I was having fun. I think his feelings might have been hurt. So I'm feeling guilty over that today but like I said, I NEVER go out dancing and I really wanted to enjoy the night.
Anyway, sorry for the long rant. I guess I just needed to vent. And maybe hope that someone else can relate so I don't feel like a loser!!
Hating myself after a night out
