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here's an NSV for ya, ladies... So, I went jeans shopping with my mom yesterday--I've mostly been getting through my weight loss size-dropping by taking in my old pairs, but it's getting to the point where I'm practically having to sew through the back pockets of my old jeans to get them to fit right! Hehe. I wasn't sure which size to get because I'm not really able to go clothing shopping when I'm at school, so a couple months will pass where I haven't tried on any new clothes... I just do my best to guess what size I am based on how much I've taken in my old jeans. The last time I'd gone jeans shopping was when I was home for
Winter break (I'm now home on Spring break, ha) when I bought the only new(-to-me) pair of jeans I've actually gotten since I started losing weight, and they were size 12s. Throughout all last quarter, I had noticed that those jeans were starting to get pretty darn loose, so I was estimating myself to be (hopefully!) a size 10...
Sooo I was at Old Navy's, and while I was trying on some clothes I also brought 2 pairs of jeans into the dressing room with me--one in a size 10, and one in a size 8 because I was curious to see how far I have to go to fit into the 8s. The 10s slipped on pretty easily, not quite as tightly as I like my pants to fit, so I thought
Hmm, that's weird; I guess I'll give the 8s a try... And *drumroll please* THEY FIT!
At first I just dismissed it as vanity sizing, because I've never bought pants at Old Navy before, but I figured they MUST have vanity sizing if I was able to fit into an 8, LOL! But then my mom and I went to another store and I tried on jeans from a few other brands, and lo and behold, I fit into an 8 in all of them! (I even fit into the "size 6" from one brand where the sizes are always one lower than they should be, haha
). How completely insane is that?! I was hoping that I
might be able to squeeze into a 10, and it turns out I'm an 8?--my world has officially been rocked! Just goes to show that I am possibly the least talented person at guessing my size, ever... But I guess it's not such a bad problem to have, because it makes for pretty pleasant surprises! Hehe.
I didn't end up buying any jeans from the stores--the waistline on the ones from Old Navy fell juuuust below my gut, which was NOT attractive (hehe), and the ones at the other stores fit okay at the waist but were too loose/relaxed through the legs... BUT, it just so happens that about a week ago I had ordered a pair of size-8 jeans from eBay--I normally never buy "motivation" clothing, but I had been craving some retail therapy, and they were only $10 (with free shipping, woohoo!!) so I figured it would be fun to have a cute pair of jeans to look forward to wearing someday. Well, in a crazy coincidence, when my mom and I got back from the store yesterday, those jeans were sitting in the mailbox! And although I did not have very high expectations from a random pair of jeans off of eBay that I didn't even get to try on before buying, in yet another crazy coincidence, they actually fit totally
perfectly! I wore them yesterday, I'm wearing them now, and I suspect that I'm going to want to wear them
every day, LOL! I never want to take off these jeans!!
Anyways, it's SO crazy that I can actually fit into a size 8... It really boggles my mind. I know I've said this at least 7290 times on 3FC, but I have been fat my whole life, and the first pair of jeans I
ever bought were a size 18 when I was ten years old! Wearing a single-digit size has basically never even been in the realm of possibility for me... It literally just doesn't feel real! And yet it's weird, because I think of an 8 as being a "normal/thin person" size, and I always thought that I'd feel pretty darn skinny if/when I ever got to this point, but, um, I still feel fat!! I remember being SO effin' psyched when I was able to fit into 16s by the end of the summer, but now my mind is just like
Oh, I'm a size 8 now, huh? That's pretty cool, I guess, but I still have a long way to go... Other people who wear this size look good to me, but I still look bad to myself--the joys of body dysmorphia, I suppose!
But of course it's still a milestone, and I'm still really happy about it. Maybe it's just taking some time for it to really sink in and for my brain to be able to process all the craziness? But either way, it was one of the best NSVs I ever could have hoped for!
(Gosh, why do I always write a freaking novel?! I swear I don't set out with the
objective of writing these mind-numbingly long threads--this is the same way I talk in real life, LOL!
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NSV: I have never worn jeans this small in my LIFE! :-O
Way to go!!!!! 
