I asked for help.
I'm not even sure what to say in this post! Ha ha...
The thing is, i think im really heading in the wrong direction. Ever since the holidays i can't stick to plan for more than 5 days at a time.
In losing this 14 kgs ive already lost, it was hard in the first few weeks but i got in the routine, and never got out of control. But ever since i started introducing occasional treats in on the holidays i feel like i will NEVER be able to get back to where i was.
I mean its not horrible, i definately havn't put on weight. I still exercise pretty much every day, its just those sweet treats once a day i cant stay away from.I just feel so out of control and like i will just end up staying this weight forever.
For example- yesterday i ate perfectly all day, healthy breakfast healthy snack healthy lunch, and then as soon as the afternoon hit, all i could think about was that m&m machine 2m away from me in my office. i even thought about my little quote in my sig "Dont sacrifice your future for a momentary pleasure". But you know what i still went back to that machin 3 times and scoffed 500 calories worth of peanut m&ms. (yes i tried to start with one tiny portion, but im just not that kinda girl...if im gonna have 4 candies im gonna have a WHOLE lot more as well.)
I think another thing that has triggered it was that alot of people have noticed my weight loss...pretty much everyone i know has said something encouraging...but to me its another excuse to get off plan because apparently "i look great!" when technically im still overweight and just not where i want to be, and i know and feel that.
I duno what im trying to say here, but has anyone ever felt like this...and howwwww just how did you get back to where you started.

