good morning ladies!!
last year i lost 41lbs and this year i've gained 20 of them back and i just can't seem to get it right! i'll lose ten and then gain it right back! for some reason this is getting harder and harder! i tried on a pair of pants that i bought about 20lbs ago and they no longer fit! i was so devestated! i can't believe i let this happen and i don't know what to do!
all of my excessive eating is emotional eating. i started purging around may and it started out as just a every once in a while thing but it's starting to happen a lot more and it's getting much easier. i actually feel good about it after i do it and the only thing that bothers me is the fact that i just wasted $ on food i ate, then threw up and i could have skipped the middle man and just save the $ and skipped calories.
whenever i see a 'skinny' person all i can do is think about how much i wish i could be them. i hate the size i am and want to be someone else so bad i can taste it.
i've gotten lost people and don't know where to turn.
how do you get back to the beginning when your so lost you can't even see the light let alone follow it?