Never Been 'Thin'? - 3 Fat Chicks on a Diet Weight Loss Community

khep · 05-15-2007, 05:05 PM

I was wondering how many people here in the 20-something's category have always been overweight? I was 114 lbs. in 2nd grade, 180 lbs. in 4th grade, and am somewhere in the 280's now (I don't get to weigh in again for a couple days now). I have had issues in the past with fearing weight loss and suddenly being seen, and now I think I am ready- but I have no idea what it will be like knowing that I am not obese? There are so many things I have put off that I am excited to get into without inhibition, and so many clothes I would love to wear and feel comfortable, etc. but I really wonder what it will be like. I know emotionally I'll still be the same, but the physical change will be a first for a lot of things. Anyone here who has also always been obese wonder how they'll handle the change?

shananigans · 05-15-2007, 05:27 PM

I’m 27 and have been varying degrees of fat to obese for as long as I can remember. I reached my full height at age 12 (5’4’’) and was about 150 at the time, all downhill from there. Looking back at pictures I was not as hugely fat as my skinny siblings and peers had me believe, but I was always at least a “chubby” kid.

I am looking forward to being in a body closer to the one I always dreamed of. The clothes, the confidence, improved health and fitness, all of it. I can’t wait, I keep having to remind myself that the journey is as important as the destination, but I kind of feel like I’ve waited my whole life already. I’d like to buy single digit clothing sizes NOW please.

RidiculouslyAddicted · 05-15-2007, 05:54 PM

I was never OBESE. Even now, my starting weight put me at 29.9 for BMI. Which is thisclose to being obese, but not QUITE over the edge. I was a thin child. I was a thin teenager. I THOUGHT I was fat the WHOLE time.

When I was 16, I weighed 117 pounds. When I graduated, I was 130 pounds. I wasn't fat. I thought I was HUGE. There were maybe 1 or 2 obese girls in my high school, and a LOT of VERY thin girls. In my senior year of high school, I can remember FIVE girls being hospitalized for anorexia.

So that may have played into my thinking.

Now, I'm overweight. I know I'll never be skinny, but I have a lot more confidence than I did at 117, or even 130, pounds, and I'm looking forward to hitting goal!

dcapulet · 05-15-2007, 05:57 PM

in the 4th grade i jumped to 150, and settled at 180 in high school. i've never been lower than that in my adult life, and my kids helped pack on 40 more.

i know exactly how you feel. i think that i'll cry the day i hit 179, my lowest weight in 15 years.

mandalinn82 · 05-15-2007, 06:18 PM

I have -always- been heavy, since I was 8 or 9 years old. I am currently lighter than I was in the 7th grade.

wateraddict · 05-15-2007, 07:13 PM

Ive never really been thin myself. Before I got pregnant I was around 150-160. So I am really looking foward to loosing all this weight. Im going to go to 150 first, then I will decide where I want to go from there. Im actually excited to see what its going to be like, being healthier, and have a better self-esteem.

FaeReverie · 05-15-2007, 07:31 PM

Ive always been bigger.. I haven't weighed as little as I do now since I was in elementary school.

And yes, I know what you mean. Sometimes I try to imagine myself having lost all my weight, and I just can't imagine it. So I suppose I shall have to wait and see!

HarpoChicoGroucho · 05-15-2007, 07:48 PM

I was always big -- I was probably a chunky zygote. I weighed more than all the babies that were with me in the maternity ward. I can't remember most of the specifics, but I think I weighed over 100 in 3rd grade, and I know I was in 4th. I gained another 100 when I went through puberty, and then crash dieted at 16, lost 60 pounds (lowest weight 160), and then gained 140 pounds between the ages of 17-18. I stayed over 300 until I finally said enough is enough and began my journey at 22. A side note -- I never delved into disordered eating until the crash diet -- after I starved myself, I became a compulsive binge eater. I had never binged eaten before. But that belongs in my forum

silver plum · 05-15-2007, 07:50 PM

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Originally Posted by RidiculouslyAddicted

I was never OBESE. Even now, my starting weight put me at 29.9 for BMI. Which is thisclose to being obese, but not QUITE over the edge. I was a thin child. I was a thin teenager. I THOUGHT I was fat the WHOLE time.

When I was 16, I weighed 117 pounds. When I graduated, I was 130 pounds. I wasn't fat. I thought I was HUGE. There were maybe 1 or 2 obese girls in my high school, and a LOT of VERY thin girls. In my senior year of high school, I can remember FIVE girls being hospitalized for anorexia.

So that may have played into my thinking.

Now, I'm overweight. I know I'll never be skinny, but I have a lot more confidence than I did at 117, or even 130, pounds, and I'm looking forward to hitting goal!

Wow - I feel like I could have written this ^^

I have never been obese, but have always felt huge. I too started HS at 118 pounds and graduated at 130. That was a good 20 pounds more than any of my friends.

Ever since then I have bounced between 130 and 150 until this past year when I hit 160. I have never been skinny and I know I never will be. I just want to be able to get back to 130 and then keep it there!

MAMA2CHUNKEYMONKEY · 05-15-2007, 09:36 PM

I have no idea what I weighed when, but I do know that I was ALWAYS 'chubby'/'fat'... ALWAYS!

WakeMeForSummer · 05-15-2007, 09:41 PM

I HONESTLY dont remember being under 200! I dont know if I just didnt weight myself-- but I know I wore a size 14 in 5th grade.

wisher · 05-15-2007, 09:49 PM

I was a pretty thin until junior high, but even then it was just a few extra pounds, nothing major, I gradually got bigger every year into high school and I don't remember what I weighed but I wore a size 16 my last 2 years, I'm a size 16 right now so I guess I weighed around 200 then too. Then into college is when I got much bigger and moved up to size 18 and eventually size 20.

Gee it sounds kind of weird to give a brief synopsis of my life that way, lol

khep · 05-15-2007, 10:07 PM

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Originally Posted by HarpoChicoGroucho

I was always big -- I was probably a chunky zygote.

I am so tempted to make that into a livejournal screen name, 'chunkyzygote'

cute!!

I have to say I am totally inspired by you. It's wonderful seeing people on the forums that you can relate too, and you've made amazing progress. I wish I had really gone through with weight loss when I was 22. I am 25, and I think the baggage has kept me from being sucessful until now. A couple weeks ago I was like "I am done with this. It's been an interesting sociological experiment, but I'm done." Thanks for your reply!

khep · 05-15-2007, 10:11 PM

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Originally Posted by WakeMeForSummer

I HONESTLY dont remember being under 200! I dont know if I just didnt weight myself-- but I know I wore a size 14 in 5th grade.

It's funny, I remember being 114 in 2nd grade, 180 in 4th grade, but then I am not sure how things went between there and high school (around 255?) I'm not sure that I saw myself gaining weight between 180 and 255 or if it just seemed like a continuation. I realized I had really changed when I was 275, years ago. Then I did atkins down to 235... back to 255... then a couple weeks ago 294... and I'll find out on Friday where I'm at now.

khep · 05-15-2007, 10:18 PM

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Originally Posted by RidiculouslyAddicted

Now, I'm overweight. I know I'll never be skinny, but I have a lot more confidence than I did at 117, or even 130, pounds, and I'm looking forward to hitting goal!

Wow, I will be ecstatic like a crazy person when I reach the 140's. I will be 40 pounds less than I was in 4th grade. It will be very crazy, and if anyone says I am not skinny, I'll kick them in the shins!

Good luck with your goal!