This is a good thing. I think it's a feeling we all aspire to at the beginning and relish in the end...maybe. Or maybe I just think too much.
When I first came here, I was 235 pounds and had 100 pounds to lose. So where did I turn? To the 100 pound club of course!! And I fit right in. It was great. Elsewhere on the board, I was jealous of posts where women in the 170's whined about needing to lose weight. I'd roll my eyes (to myself of course) and think, "You have no idea." Usually I'd then click out of that post. But here in this club, I never felt that way. I knew I could read any post without concern of getting my feelings hurt by women I considered tiny calling themselves horrible things.
Now I'm in the 170's, which I can't believe, by the way. I think one of the biggest lessons and blessings I will take away from this experience is that I feel blessed to be this healthy and it thrills me to slip into size 12's. That inner voice that never-been-obese people hear that tells them they are fat at 170 pounds is squelched...almost; mostly. That little voice that told my teenage self that size 12's were fat pants...gone.
I'm thrilled to be where I am, even though I have more to go. I just hope I don't come across as annoying right here in this very special place. The 170's was just an unreachable number for me. I was around 190 when my first son was born and started dieting myself right up to 235 from that moment on. The lowest I ever got from that point on was 185, and it wasn't truly 185 because my scale was a good 15 pounds off, so probably 200. More concretely, I got into a tight size 16 and now I'm in a comfortable 12.
In any case, you won't hear me calling myself fat here or anywhere else! I no longer consider myself fat. Now, I still have fat!! But to me there's a HUGE distinction between being fat and having fat. Maybe I do just think too much.
Eliana ~ I don't think you come across as annoying at all. I totally understand the eye-rolling comment as well. You have done an amazing job and I think it's wonderful that you can appreciate your accomplishments and enjoy them. I look forward to the day where I no longer consider myself fat (even though I may still "have fat").
I think it is wonderful that you are accepting yourself, and are not going to "whine" about weighing 170! I would kill to be 170, which by the way puts me in a size 10 or 12 too!
I once saw a post- and this person talked on and on about how they had never been so big in their life, how they now had three children, how they had to get back into shape, etc. And I thought wow this person seems so sad- then I looked- they only needed to lose like 15 lbs- I was like omg are you serious? lol. Then I just closed it like really it's 15 lbs!
The challenges of those that have over 100 lbs to lose are different than those who have less. I would also say the challenges of those who have lost 100 lbs or more are also different than those that have less. I have less than 100 lbs to lose but you won't get rid of me
In any case, you won't hear me calling myself fat here or anywhere else! I no longer consider myself fat. Now, I still have fat!! But to me there's a HUGE distinction between being fat and having fat. Maybe I do just think too much.
Funny you and I have landed in the same place mentally at the same weight. I now feel like I look like a "normal" person who just needs to lose a few pounds rather than fat.
That's wonderful and I truly feel happy for you. I'm starting at 250 so to get down to 170 lbs would be a major accomplishment for me. Congratulations on your achievement!
But I do agree with nelie. When we have so much to lose, it's easy to dismiss people who have 15-20 lbs to lose. It's easy to compare them with ourselves and think, "Seriously? You're complaining about having to lose 20 lbs only while I've lost so much more to get down to where you currently are?" Their struggles and our struggles are indeed different and that doesn't mean their struggle isn't as significant as ours. For them this is the highest they've ever been.
I think you better stick around...I need a big old kick in the a**. We started (well, I re-started in Dec of 09) about the same time and you've lost almost triple the weight I have. Ack!
I guess my 'planned-off plan' days and loosey goosey with the plan when I do stick to it just isn't cutting it!
People like YOU and Uber and Rocking Robin' and CFMama, that have lost the weight or are still losing and being sooo SUCCESSFUL keep me coming back every day!
Last edited by Michelle98272; 06-15-2010 at 01:21 PM.
Funny you and I have landed in the same place mentally at the same weight. I now feel like I look like a "normal" person who just needs to lose a few pounds rather than fat.
I have been calling myself "Texas normal" lately: on the coasts, or overseas, or in Colorado, I'd be fat, but here in TX I can pass for normal.
I forget how far I have come--I read about women hitting Onderland and I am jealous--I'll think "Man, I wish I was in the 190s!" and then I remember that I'm less than that now.
I know people with 100+ to lose and people with 15-20 to lose have entirely different mentalities about this and everyone's feelings are valid, regardless. And that is, of course, why having "the club" is such a wonderful thing. We can talk about most anything without fear of getting hurt feelings. I've noticed everyone around here is really careful about the wording of certain feelings, topics, etc. It's just that hearing someone I think is small or where I want to be call themselves "fat" or worse, it's hard to read.
I'm glad I can be happy at this weight because I know a lot of women at my height/weight would not consider themselves in a good place. The fact that I can look at myself in the mirror and actually smile...it's been so long!! I actually turn away from my reflection before I can over critique it, because I darn well could! But I'm happy being happy.
It's getting weird here for me.
But to me there's a HUGE distinction between being fat and having fat. Maybe I do just think too much. 
