You have a plan in hand and a clear goal in mind --- you will do just fine, Matt. And good for you for jumping right back on plan so fast! Now I know who to call to kick my behind when I am slip-sliding away.
Matt, I am so sorry you are hurting right now. When I feel so, so sad, frustrated, upset . . . I try to journal my feelings or write the person I am frustrated with a letter of how I feel. (and DON'T send it). It is helpful to do it.
So I just got back and man, that sucked. The good things are today was really good food/ exercise wise. I also didn't drink and stuck to the plan of getting there late and leaving relatively early (11pm). The bads news forcing a smile and pretending to be happy didn't work. It takes time and I certainly am not there yet.
One minute. One hour, one day, one week. May your cumulative life experiences and your well-earned victories (and your supportive 3FC'ers) help you forward until the healing of time takes over.
Just ONE good choice a day. Making nice faces when your heart has been ripped out of your chest and stomped on takes alot of strength.
"Couragio" --things can only get better...
Kira
Yeah, it sure couldn't have felt good last night, but you did the RIGHT thing --- you were there for the mutual friend and you were there for YOU, eating right and avoiding the alcohol. Give yourself big points for that because you earned them, Matt!