Beverly,
I haven't read the other replies yet because I am, uh, dealing with chronic pain. And it's bad enough at the moment that I
a) can't do much reading, and
b) want to stuff myself with pizza to distract myself from the horrid headache and mild nausea
But I want you to know that I really like having you around. You're such a nice person and have always been supportive and I really appreciate it. And I am right there with you, regained weight and trying to get it back off. You're still skinnier than me
I have chronic knee pain. I have severe degenerative arthritis and bone spurs in both knees, and a torn meniscus on one knee. It hurts a lot of the time. It grinds ALL the time. And yeah I want to throw myself into a vat of alfredo sauce to drown out the pain sometimes, but I find that acknowledging the pain and the desire for it to go away and the feelings of helplessness... just acknowledging all those things goes a long way in being able to stay sane and find alternatives to overeating.
What do you love to do? Make a list. Think of things that comfort you that are not food. Me, I like long baths, reading books, sitting outside in nature and meditating, and sitting with a mug of hot tea with a scented candle burning in the house. Those kinds of things can help with chronic pain.
Good meds help too... take what you gotta. Sometimes I just sit and cry a bit over the pain and then I can get back up and keep on going. It's better than stuffing the feelings down with food.
Anyway I care about you and want you to succeed, so keep on posting and we will get there together, ok??