I'm usually pretty upbeat about things, but boy am I having a not so great day today. Things that are getting me down:
- only had a .5 lb loss this week, I was hoping for more cause I felt like I've been pretty intentional about things this week
- today at the gym I was struck by this overwhelming feeling that I've "ruined my body" with all the years of being overweight. Also, that I wasted my prime younger years overweight (I'm 37)...and now I'm at the stage where lines, wrinkles, excess skin, whatever is around... I just wish I could have experienced a healthy lifestyle at a younger age. I don't often feel this way, it just sort of hit me today as I was looking at this younger, fit girl working out.
- I got this pain in the top of my foot while I was running last week. I'm sort of freaking out that maybe it's something that would require me to stop running for a while. I need to start my marathon training. But of course I don't want to keep running on it just to make it a worse situation that would require a longer break from running... Sigh. Trying to find an orthopedic doc who will see me ASAP.
- still trying to get over this guy who stopped seeing me a few weeks ago because he's "not ready for a serious relationship", and boy he "wishes he would have met me later" when he was ready for one. I was really excited about that guy too....
Ok, I'm going to try to get out of this funky mood. I really do have a million things to be grateful for, and to be happy about. Off to remember them