But I've climbed back on!
I had been feeling so good about myself and my weightloss these past few weeks. I felt like I was *finally* in the right head space as far as doing this slowly, sustainably, and in a non-depriving/diet mentality. I lost about 10 lbs in about a month, which I thought was really great. But then I got overconfident and stopped tracking food, just "guesstimating" 400 calories a meal. And I was still losing- not as fast, but still! And then I started letting myself cheat a little. Just a piece of birthday cake here, a dessert there, a no-holds-barred-bingefest-pizza-and-wings-and-beer dinner every once in a while, a few snacky-alcohol-laden hangoutfests every...weekend...SO I fell off pretty hard for a week, forced myself to weigh in today (my usual weigh-in day) and I have gained 1.4 lbs. Not as terrible as it could have been, for sure, but I figure I have now put myself back TWO weeks- it will take me at least a week to lose the extra, and if I had stayed on plan, I would have lost close to that much (hopefully).
I have to realize that I am not saying goodbye to pizza, alcohol, and social snacking forever, but that to LOSE I have to stop doing it pretty much all together now, and later, when I am at goal, I will be able to do those things within reason. Hopefully stopping them now will teach me more healthy ways of "rewarding" myself for a long day/week/whatever and the struggle won't be as difficult on the other side. Still, Samuel Johnson once said, "Abstinence is as easy for me as moderation is difficult." I think I may be in the same boat.