HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEB!!! Hope you have a GREAT day!!
Okay...confession time. I TOTALLY screwed up last night. Had beer and everything!!
Here's my deal...and I think those of you struggling (or that have made it through) with trying to lose MANY pounds (+100) will understand:
I have been "searching" for some way to lose this weight. Weight watchers, calorie counting, whatever. No pills or drugs, but just a good "plan." Mainly it's been weight watchers. When I was thin (and I was for most of life up until 5 years ago when I had my daughter)...it was easy not to "cheat" or eat wrong because I would gain weight and get "fat." But now that I'm already fat, my mentality has changed to "whatever...i'm already fat, so what's the difference." It's hard to shake that. It's hard to look in the mirror and see what I see.....so....I eat up!! Does that make sense???
So...even though I know this way of eating is waaaay right, it's still hard to believe that without weighing my food, or counting points, or doing tons of work, that I will actually lose weight. I still have this "need" to count points or SOMETHING, and I still have my doubts that it will work...for me.
All I know is I NEED to lose this weight. It is covering up so many aspects of my personality....my self-confidence mainly. I hate to see people who might either remember me thin, or not know that I have gained sooooo much weight!! I embarrass myself, and I don't want to be the "fat mom."
So....last night was a setback ... but today I will try to move forward.
Thanks for letting me just think "out loud." You all are an inspiration!!!!
Cj