I'm been overweight for as long as I can remember, except in highschool when I lost 60 pounds by dieting obsessively. I had no idea I was losing in an unhealthy way and I eventually gained it back plus a bunch more!
I have had some success counting calories or doing WW, but I always fail within a month or two because of my overeating and binging. Sometimes I can't stop myself from binging for even one day. For instance, yesterday was my first day back on WW and I binged on pizza in the evening and today I tried to 'restart' and ate 21 of my weekly points! I know that doesn't mean 'fail' but if I can't even go one day without overeating what the heck am I going to do?
I feel horribly out of control. Everytime I think about food I just want to cry and I fear that I'm just going to get bigger and bigger. I am 21 and in college and I just want to be living my life. I want to make some progress with this weight loss and start getting healthier. I know exactly how to lose weight the healthy way but I just can't stop myself from overeating or binging.
I am going to go to an OA meeting on Thursday but I just worry that it will be just the same everyday, except with me telling people how upset I am about it each week. I feel like I don't know how to stop overeating.
I think I'm just letting it all out here, and I'm not really sure if I even have a question. Maybe I just need some support. I need to hear that others have gotten through this and that there might be some hope for me to lose weight and live a normal life.