I've heard that small voice often, too. When I ignore it I tend to regret it. I hate mammograms - I'm considering putting up the cash for the ultrasound starting next year.
Becky - I hope you get your tests the way you want and find nothing out of order.
Sheila - awesome that your doctor called you thin! And wow, I wouldn't be able to make it with that list of exclusions.
I'm still working on getting my feet under me. I've exercised more consistently in the month of October than I have for months - 5 of 7 days pretty much every week. My food has averaged 1819 a day for the last 28 days, which is apparently my maintenance level as I haven't lost a bit of weight even with exercise. I've pretty much decided that the exercise doesn't do a thing for my weight, only for my aesthetics.
Thanks for asking, bargoo. He is doing much better. He still has a few incidents here and there, but his performance at school is much improved. They took him off the behavior plan last month and he is now on a regular development tier. Now we are having to deal with the more normal 7 year old selfishness and smart alec behavior which has been revealed by the meds controlling the outbursts. He is quite the smarty pants, but we can handle that.
Thanks for asking, bargoo. He is doing much better. He still has a few incidents here and there, but his performance at school is much improved. They took him off the behavior plan last month and he is now on a regular development tier. Now we are having to deal with the more normal 7 year old selfishness and smart alec behavior which has been revealed by the meds controlling the outbursts. He is quite the smarty pants, but we can handle that.
Great to have a normal kid, isn't it ? This must be such a relief.
Shannon, like Bargoo, I was wondering how your stepson was, but unsure whether no news was good news, or whether this meant you were venting elsewhere, on another forum, or perhaps quietly imploding. I am glad to hear that hard work on your part, his part, his teachers' part and medication is helping him cope and settle in.
My weight is down just over a pound from what it was earlier this week. I am hoping that, if I pick back up with my sensible habits, I can keep some of my ill-gotten losses from the week of dealing with the hurricane.
I'm going to have to confront my recent binge behavior head-on. It's those nuts, my kryptonite, as grapes are for Michele. But it's more than that. I'm sure it's a delayed reaction to the stress brought on by the hurricane, which stirs up deep dark existential things in me. Also to the pile of work that accumulated while I was out, and which I still must get done on deadline, despite losing several days of work. When I binge, it's like that little voice we've been talking about, and I must listen. I must confront this head-on, rather than forgetting about it immediately after it happens and hoping it goes away. I'm planning to pick up with the Chicks in Control forum here later this afternoon, after I get some more work out of the way.
I am feeling better than I did last Thursday. The weather is suddenly mild and sunny and snow is melting. The weekend is supposed to be lovely. I'll spend much of it on my laptop, indoors, trying to catch up with my work, unfortunately, but I'll plan at least two nice things for myself. Maybe a movie, maybe a pedicure. Maybe both.
Was down 2 pounds this morning, yes, I know it is probably normal fluctuations but I'll take it. I am happy any time the scale goes down a little, no matter how it got there.
I would take it too Bargoo. My scale is stubbornly still up. I hate the weeks that I stay up for no apparent reason (okay there were grapes earlier in the week but they were days ago). The week before I knew why the scale was up, I worked hard, and by Saturday I was down to 122. This week the scale is staying up (126) and 125 is my redline so I'm not thrilled. I'll have to have zero indiscretions this weekend.
Dh is still in China so I'll be all alone to exercise, shop, do whatever..... There is a giant outlet mall (very high end stores) that had its grand opening yesterday. I was contemplating going there this weekend until I saw the giant traffic snarls on the news-- people stuck for hours trying to get in and out. No thank you. I'll venture over to Marshalls 5 minutes from my house and see what deals they have to offer!
This has been a crazy, horrible week at work and I'll be so glad to see it over. Happy that Monday is a holiday too! Monday I've scheduled the dishwasher repair and my blood donation-- exciting stuff. Maybe I'll throw in a flu shot for extra fun.
Tomorrow I'm doing a doxie walk around a reservoir. I've done it before and it's a lot of fun but not much exercise as the doxies and their owners are a slow bunch.
Michele re: flu shots. A couple of weeks ago my DS called me and asked "what have you been doing ? Or something similar. My answer I had a flu shot, that should tell you how exciting my life is.
DH and I have decided to "maintain" through the holidays and I've postponed my Nutrisystem delivery. That means within a couple of days we'll be out of breakfast items, desserts and running very low on lunches. I still have at least 10 dinners or more to work through. I am looking forward to a little more variety but will have to be careful that this maintenance is just that: maintenance and not gaining!
2 trips to the pool this week! And I can still move, surprisingly. My girlfriend Pat, who is a nationally-ranked open water Masters swimmer, is flying out to spend a long weekend with me; I pick her up Friday. I'm very much looking forward to her visit and I know there will be substantial pool time.
I was able to come to a meeting of the minds with the doctor's office - I will commit to a re-scan in 6 months, and will come in for an exam and meet with their "breast specialist." As Bargoo advised, I am going to put my peace of mind at the highest priority.
My thoughts are also on the holidays. If I can hold the line under 148, that would be a major win.
Here's an article from WebMD about food allergies. Interestingly, the "tests" done for food allergies are not conclusive and may even contain incorrect results.
Not bingeing, at least, but that's because I've fallen back on my bad habit of continuous, one-after-the-other sugarfree gum-chewing.
I hate one of the two assignments I'm supposed to be working on over the weekend. (I resent working on the weekend anyway, as I feel I am being punished over my proactive hurricane response by having to give up my weekend to make up work that I missed for time out during the hurricane & then moving my stuff back in.) I'm working with someone who's in a division made up entirely of a company we acquired. All the analysts in that group are basically unhappy over having been acquired and don't wish to adopt the ways of their new masters. They have never collaborated with writers. They just write what they will, at whatever level they're at, and a copy editor cleans it up, and it's published. My company finds that inefficient and that our clients infinitely prefer material that's shorter, tighter & easier to read, such as a professional writer turns out. So they're asking me to collaborate with one of these recalcitrant analysts as an experiment. Only he made clear at our meeting that he was doing this unwillingly, was already convinced it wouldn't work, and had low expectations. Feeling unwanted -- when among the general analyst population, I am respected & my services are in high demand, with an endless queue -- and also feeling unsure of myself with this new division's written product, I am dreading & avoiding this assignment.
I just need to make myself do it today.
And remind myself that snacking will solve NONE of the issues that I just outlined here.
My scale will say tomorrow whether my rational mind won out over my unhappy childish self.
saef, don't know what I can say to help in this situation except to say this person is very unprofessional, how does he keep his job with such a bad attitude ? Sorry you have to put up with that. You are not being childish but are being professional and efficient, qualities to be admired.
That person will bad attitude themselves out of a job sooner or later, Saef. Hope your rational mind won out.
I took on a project today. There are certain jobs around the house that dh does and doesn't want me "attempting". However, with his work and travel schedule, the "honey do" list isn't getting accomplished whatsoever. When we had the hot water leak recently, the water stained the baseboards in our downstairs bathroom. Dh treated the wood (bleach, etc.) but hasn't gotten around to painting. The bathroom also had lots of holes in the walls where dd had hung things and dh spackled them but never painted. Suffice it to say the bathroom looked atrocious-- not to mention the walls are a yellow color that I've never liked. For whatever reason, dh thinks I'm not capable of painting.... so, I'm (hopefully pleasantly) going to surprise him. I've never painted a room before. Today I did the blue tape thing and painted the walls (two coats of a pretty seafoam green). As long as that looks okay, I'm going to attempt the baseboards tomorrow. Crossing my fingers that it all turns out well and dh will be happy and not annoyed. I have been known to start projects and have them not go well, leaving dh with more work-- which could be why he is reticent about my painting!
I was not as productive this past weekend as I'd hoped. I finished off the other of the two jobs that I needed to do, and am tackling the unpleasant one today. My reluctant collaborator is just going to get his draft later than I'd initially promised before the hurricane.
I did a lot of nervous nibbling yesterday but was saved by an insane amount of gum-chewing. I went through three packs of the stuff. Which made my stomach sick -- it's the xylitol or sorbitol or whatever they put in it. Thank goodness that I was alone in my apartment because I would not have been socially acceptable.
I didn't remember to weigh, but will do so tomorrow.
