[snicker311]

I think that I have finally admitted to myself that my weight issues are purely emotional. My weight is out of control. I eat when I'm not hungry. I eat all day - hungry or not. I reward myself with food. I console myself with food.
When I diet, I become obsessed with food - I think about food all day, which makes me want to eat more and more.
I need to find help. I went to OA years ago, for a short period of time. I didn't really enjoy the meetings - I didn't feel like I belonged. However, I now feel that I am ready to try again. This time I'm not looking for a quick fix... this time I realize that I need to change my brain. I need support. I need help. I am very stubborn, always trying to do things myself. But, past failures have shown that doing it myself is not working. I am depressed. I feel hopeless. I feel broken.
I have discovered that my body doesn't like certain foods, yet I keep eating those foods - in large quantities. It is like I am purposefully trying to hurt myself - as though I am self-harming (dietary form of cutting?) Not sure this is making any sense. Thanks for listening to my rant.

[alaskanlaughter]

(((hugs))) it totally makes sense to me...i also struggle with eating things that i know aren't good for my body (sugar, wheat)...hard to break that addiction...i also eat all the time, for any reason, purely emotional and to deal with stress of various kinds...

[StellaMichelle]

I just found this forum and I am totally relate to what you are saying. Today was a bad day for me... I was pretty stressed and I think the food in a way numbs the pain, like I'd rather have negative feeling about eating and my body overshadow the other tough things I have to deal with.

Hugs! Tomorrow will be better.

[KittyKatFan]

I have been where you are for most of my life. Even though I have successfully lost weight, I am STILL where you are emotionally, thinking about food even when I'm not hungry. I have heard that even people who successfully break the binge habit can take 5-7 years before the positive habits they learned come naturally.

If you live in a populated area, I suggest doing a search for binge eating disorder treatment in your area. It can be expensive without insurance, but a treatment program could be very helpful for you.

I wish you the best of luck

[snicker311]

I'm so glad that I'm not alone. I sure feel that way most of the time. Thank goodness we have this forum to make us feel a little less lonely.

[jordan932]

I have felt his way plenty of times, just try to find something that works for you and stick with it. Have you tried to go on a diet that's consistent?