Michi702 Well aren't you a cute little kitty...cat!! Sounds like you are already throwing yourself into things.
Great Job and
Credit for that!!
tazzy You are on fire!
gardenerjoy I too hate sappy solutions. Life is often gritty and that is one reason why I like Dr. Beck's style. Hers is not a "Goldilock's solution".
onebyone I am not going to mince words here, gf, I could easily see how the fact that DH has got an iron grip on the $$ is what caused your binge. Whether he is a reasonable person or not, you do need to express your feelings towards him about how you feel about not getting your needs met or you will be on this merry-go-round of "rebellion" which is just another word for self-sabotaging your efforts to become healthy and sane.
One of the most difficult things that I have had to learn to do was to assert myself and stand up for what I need as a person, especially in an intimate relationship. It takes a lot of patience, self-knowledge, compromise and maturity but it can and must be done. Actually, I have also had to "teach" my DH to do the same with me since he is the "silent" type about his own needs. I have also "taught" him to give out cues that I can "read" so that if he feels awkward saying "I need such and such..." he can speak in a code I "understand" and then I know what he needs/"wants".
Have you considered bartering for what you need? Offer to paint a picture for someone in exchange for art supplies? I don't know if your present circumstances allow you to take on a part time job or not so you could also purchase the items you might need to further your art career but that was another idea that came to mind. How about any of your friends or relatives?
The main thing that I would
strongly encourage to do is
don't eat over this! It is just plain not worth it! There is a better way and that is something that you will need to figure out how to do. I understand the temptation because that is probably what you have always done but you never get out of this yo-yo pattern of going up and down the weight lose ladder until you stop reacting to life's thorny problems by eating food you don't need and probably don't want.
Will it be easy? No, not the first, second or third time but by the time you have done it a few times, there will come an ease with it. If you haven't ever asserted yourself with him, it can be downright scary but you might be surprised at his reaction. He might not be as inflexible as you think. If he is, well, then you can decide what to do about that at that point. First, give the man a chance and see what he says. Just remember,
respect comes first among equals.
Stats for Day 22 (8/30):
Note: BLC reduced my daily caloric range down to 1400-1800 calories today. Fortunately, I caught it "in time" when I was logging my evening meal.
**1768 calories 31 g fiber 3480 mg sodium
**Designated "Day Of Rest" so just continued to work in my closet, light housework(laundry/loaded dishwasher, made meals), did some hand sewing and watched semi-finals of AGT!
**F/V:lots of fruits today! 1 whole apple, 8 oz lite cranberry juice, 1 whole med banana, 1/2 c red grapes, 1/2 c fresh pineapple. No vegetables today unless you count the tomato sauce (which tomatoes are actually a fruit, so there you are!) I had with the spinach, carrot and tomato fettucine (the box says: 1 servings of vegetables in a 2 oz serving). I will not buy it again--taste felt "processed" and kind of "fake".(frankenfood???
)
**Sugar: None
**Water: does chewing multiple glasses of ice cubes count? Otherwise, lots of Coke Zero Cherry, my new favorite!
**Sleep: 8 blessed hours. TYJ!
**Post-yes
**Planned: No
**Log: Yes
Dumb me, I noticed that part of this "Challenge" was reporting some of these other elements that I wasn't so I have added a couple. I still do not pre-plan my meals the day before. I know that Dr. Beck stresses that as well. I'm not being difficult about it but I have found that too many times I am looking at this pre-planned menu and I am going, I don't want to eat that now, I want to eat this instead. My kitchen is "clean" so I can't "go wild" in there. There are no treenuts lurking in the pantry or Kit Kats above the microwave (he eats them too fast for me to get my hands on them--again respect, they are his!) I know some of you here pre-plan your next day's meals. Isn't that rather stifling?
Well, folks, I am going to confess this since it was probably more obvious to you than it was to me (isn't that the way life is though?). BLC went and reduced my recommended daily caloric range since I dropped down to where I am no longer in the "heavy weight" category (no pun intended).
Could you really say I was eating a reduced-calorie food plan before when you see
some of my daily stats. NO!!
You are all just too kind. I did not hear even a whisper of "psst, ....." Such love!
Back at ya
So, now, I am really going to need those response cards!! I am going to do my very best to stay under 1800 calories per day. Since we all know how much I eat out,
now the real work begins. As I was telling my DH last night, I have "listened" and read how
all of you have worked so diligently to tip toe around the land mines when it comes to eating out and truly staying on a more restricted food plan and now, it is my turn. I want to do all of you proud so I am "sucking it up"
and putting my hand to the plow.
Wecome Michi702
I kept the water to a reasonable amount yesterday of only 54 oz at my desk. Also had Zumba last night, credit for that and it was a nice temperature in the gym so that helped. 
responding to tension
I looked into Beck because I needed something more than just calorie counting. I had experienced moderate success on it before and still like following my 1800 calories a day plan, but mentally I just wasn't where I needed to be. I love that Dr. Beck focuses on attitudes and helps me create a positive change through her program. It's nice to ease my way in by doing just 1 thing a day too!
