Hello everyone .. I just feel so motivated and inspired watching everyone on their challenge .. everyone facing different issues, some visible and some not so noticeable ... regardless they are all things that we face each day .. and quite frankly I think POSITIVE DAILY UPDATES are needed .. not just a weekly weigh in ... so.. how about we each think of at least ONE thing that is positive about our day .. if you are struggling to find anything .. how about IM BREATHING! (even if its not easily lol).
I think when we are on these sorts of journeys its like a self discovery. I have thoughts quite often ... am I being selfish thinking of myself .. how Im feeling .. how Im looking .. and I do get told that its not selfish because its going to give a better us to those we love .. but then I think .. but its like giving up smoking ... or drinking .. or drugs .. should you not make the journey to a healthier you for yourself and not for others??
Not long after I joined this site I had such great intentions .. I wanted to be better for my family .. I wanted to be able to do things with them and for them which because I was so overweight I couldnt do comfortably. But then my world fell apart .. I lost 2 dear pets (and believe me I am very attached to my animals), my aunt, my 11 year old nephew and almost my sister in the course of 6 months. I had to be so strong for everyone else I forgot to be strong for me and let myself cave in to my cravings for comfort. And then I had the guilt for using them as a reason to put myself in an even worse state. Its taken me a long time to get my headspace right again ..
Last year my sister was diagnosed with melanoma with a 60% chance of keeping her around for another 6 months. My sister is the most awesome person in my life. She refused to believe what the doctors have said .. she has changed her whole lifestyle in ways I could never imagine doing ... and now over a year on she has just come back from her first big OE to Italy/Germany .. and she is still going strong. What an inspiration .. and how can I look at her and let myself give in to something that I dont need in the journey to improve my life.
I would love to know what challenges you all face ... even if its a little one .. or if you would rather pm me that is fine. I think I find inspiration in seeing how people keep persevering regardless of what is happening in their life/health.
For me .. I have been in 14 car accidents (none of which I was driving and I was always the only one injured). I get tired very easy and have recently had to give up full time work because I just cant make it through a day. I am retraining in an area I never thought I would go near .. cosmetics lol .. I have 2 grandkids and another one on the way .. which my hunny and I help to support .. not the best situation, but its family, what can you do? On the plus side .. Down a long path which I started on almost 20 years ago .. I have learned to like who I am .. I am still learning to curb the guilt I feel over things I shouldnt feel guilty about ... and I am open and a free spirit .. and at 42 I still dont know what I want to be when I grow up lol ..
Hope I havent bored you .. but would love to hear more about you all