Well, hum, I'm still up and down the same 5lbs. At least not completely running mad.
My first counselling session turned out to be a fact-finding interview from a slip of a girl half my size, half my age. We ran out of time, so I went back for part 2 today. She tried to be polite but basically she told me off for talking too much last time. So I told her it was my first time doing this, and it was up to her to move me on if I was talking too much.
So I was briefer in my replies this time. She is going to refer me to supervision for their view. She is of the opinion that I have a couple of things going on - low mood for a variety of self-perpetuating reasons but also a huge slew of things from the past to escape from. I knew that but I'm glad she agreed.
She's to send me information on local counselling services - but unfortunately they are not available on the National Health Service, so will be to pay for. She asked if that would affect my decision whether to take it up or not. I don't have a problem in principle but it just depends what the costs are.
Actually, I find I do mind: there are any number of entirely elective physical procedures that the NHS will pay for, why not this, which is damaging my life seriously?
Ah! I was wondering where you'd gone and was worried about a backslide, I am so happy to hear you're back on plan and including a counseling component.
We're here for you when you need us, keep on keepin' on!
Grrr. So the slip of a girl went through the triage procedure and you're probably not a case for the CMHT. I think that's a sigh of relief I'm hearing from me.
But where does that leave you if the NHS doesn't provide counselling in your area? Is she suggesting you 'pick your own' from the leaflets? Interesting. What about quality control? And cost, of course.
(Govt policy is to increase CBT - cognitive behaviour therapy - provision but er that's yet to happen a lot in practice. Some CMHTs do it but they often aren't very experienced. Hence my sigh of relief. You are the best. You should have the best. Oh yes, the Beck Diet Solution is CBT - you know how I like that! And CBT might not be the best model for you.))
Glad to hear you're not barking, despite living with a fair few dogs!
Last edited by silverbirch; 03-11-2010 at 03:10 PM.
Welcome Back Rosinante! I was getting ready to put out a post to see how you were doing. Glad to see you are still trying. I think that's ridiculous that girl complained you talked to much. How are they going to assess your situation without all the information. You would think they would want you to tell them all what's going on. Well I hope they have something affordable you can continue with.
Good idea to take the steps you need to for yourself. I give you credit. Hope you're feeling better soon. You're persistence (sp?) inspires me to keep going, too!
hey, R. nice to see your posts. how bad is it that money becomes such an issue in mental care. raises the "just wrong" hackles on the back of my neck. happens here too.
