things have been generally crappy so that's why I haven't posted. I don't know what I do with my time that I can't seem to manage to ride my exercise bike for 30 freaking minutes a day or get my butt to the grocery store and buy some food. There is so much up in the air right now, whether we are getting a new car or not, what I am doing with my job, general stress from my husband and over my son. It drives me nuts that somedays I feel paralysed, I can't do anything sometimes. Today actually I did a lot outside and I did a fair bit of cleaning inside, but this is the exception rather than the rule. It doesn't work to make a list or make a schedule, I know what I need to do, I just can't make myself do it!
Like when I come here I feel very motivated to make plans but when it comes to actually implementing and sticking with it, I just can't do it. That's why I almost think one of those low cal protein diets would be good for me. Like if I had a can of one of those protein drinks and that was all I had to eat for the day I think I could stick with that. I think I could wrap my brain around that was all I could eat. Anyway, there is a weight clinic at one of the hospitals here and I've been seriously thinking about asking my dr for a referral. I wouldn't do surgery but even if I could get on a low cal supervised diet and lost like 20 or 30 lbs quick I think that would hugely motivate me to continue on. Why is life so difficult sometimes?
