[clkchef]

But I made it through!

All I wanted to do was eat. I wanted to eat chips and dip, mashed potatoes and sour cream, a HUGE steak, a juicy burger - any meal that would be fattening and artery clogging.

I didn't want to journal my food. I didn't want to count a single point. I didn't want another sip of water.

By bedtime last night I realized why.

I realized I was pouting. I was mad at the realization that I will very likely have to do something like this for the rest of my life. This isn't a 'quick' fix. This isn't a temporary solution to a interim problem.

This is something I will have to handle and deal with every day. Just like being an alcoholic or addicted to drugs - I'll have to take it one day at a time forever.

I will always have to make smarter choices about food and physical activity. I will never be able to eat just what I want, when I want, every time I want to.

For the first time in my life I realized that in order to lose weight and keep it off. In order to reach a healthy weight .

I have to loose a lifestyle. I have to reach a healthy mindset. And it has to be a 'forever' kind of thing. Otherwise I'll be right back where I stared (plus a few pounds).

It was a tough realization.

So, like I usually do when upset, pouting, frustrated, angry, depressed ... I wanted to eat. I wanted to eat until it didn't hurt or make me angry any more!

The good news? I pigged out on plain, air popped popcorn and 32 ounces of water!

I turned my back on my desire to sabotage myself. I thought about it and I made smarter choices! And I stayed OP. I stayed within my points. In fact, I even managed to bank 4 points!

Hurray!

Carole
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[thinthinker]

Carole:

HURRAY FOR YOU!!!! You are on your way to a healthy new attitude to go with your healthy new eating! Isn't it wonderful when we overcome all the 'junk' in our life and decide we are going to move on and leave it all behind????

CONGRATULATIONS on the first day of the rest of your life!!!

[Dora140]

WOW!!! YOU ARE INCREDIBLE!!!

YOU have gained an important tool just by living through the day. Wish you could bottle it and send some my way!!

Don't know if you are doing the WW meetings, but my leader would take your letter and do what she calls "reframing".

Instead of "having to do this" everyday, you have made the commitment to regain a healthy lifestyle.

You understand TODAY the realistic, hard choices that have to be made. The "easy" way today (diving headfirst into those potato chips) really won't seem so easy tomorrow when it's attached to your thighs.

Physical activity seems hard, repugnant, sweaty, painful, embarrassing, and time-consuming today. But soon you will relish the wonderful high, additional strength and energy, and more compact body.

Your attitude today WILL pay off and you WILL be able to pass the word on to someone else who needs to make changes.

I'm proud of you. You can be, too.!

All the best!