
(OnP Saturday, OffP Sunday, Back on today...with a little help from DD)
I was so stupid on Sunday. I went on a binge for the dumbest of reasons. I had worked out my menu for the day and had a Milky Way lite planned for the day. Half after I exercised, and half as an evening snack. Well, I walked 3 miles in the morning, and when I got home, I cut the candy bar in half and then sectioned it into 4 pieces, so I could really sit down and enjoy it. I went into the other room to get the paper, and when I came back, there were only 2 pieces. DH decided to help himself. I got completely irrational, ranting about how it was my treat and I had earned the points and now he'd eaten then, etc. I was a raving lunatic about 2 stupid pieces of candy. Anyway, I was so upset that I ate the other half of the candy bar and kept going from there. It was not pretty, and so childish, I'm ashamed of how I behaved. I've obviously got some issues to work on here.
I am happy to say that I'm back on track today. DS got his head gear for his braces today and is not a happy camper. I'm feeling the big time mommy guilt for subjecting him to this torture. Also, everytime he gets something done with his braces, he stops eating for a couple of days. He is truly skin and bones at this point, so to bribe him to eat today, I offered to get him a milk shake and fries to go with his dinner. Thank goodness DD decided to go in the car with me because after I went through the drive-thru, those fries smelled heavenly. DD must have been reading my mind because she said, "Don't eat those fries, Mommy, you'll mess up your diet." I kind of whined to her and said that sometimes it's just easier to not think about it and I'd never lose all the weight anyway (I definitely need to work on the messages I'm sending my kids!) so why bother trying, and my sweet little girl said, "Mommy, you're going to do it if you keep trying. I can tell you're skinnier every time you get out of the shower." Well, after that, even if I really wanted those fries, I wouldn't have eaten them.
So, while things are a little stressful at my house, I'm hanging on and doing my best.
Gizzi - I completely agree that being able to 'get back up on the horse' with this program is one of the biggest advantages. I don't know why it's this way now, but I thank God every day for it. Persistance, not perfection is my motto these days.
Dora - Sounds like you got quite a workout AND some quality time with your daughter. Good for you.
Kathy - Glad you're feeling better. Two losses in a row is a big yeah! Congratulations.
Make the best week possible for yourselves.
Michele