OK, after a few days of hard frustration I got over it :-))) I am starting to take care of what I eat from today and trying to forgot about the crazy doctor. I will have to visit him in 6 weeks and in a meantime try to lose weight. Not because of him, but me. I did not do all that not to have any effect.
In a mentime I am trying to find a clinic that do Lap bands in my town and I have found only ONE. One rejected me becuase thay do only baloons but this one does lap band, so I am hoping for the YES from their side.
Leenie, thank you so much for the support, I really needed that :-)
After some histeric epizode I realised that there is allways a solutin and that I can finde one no metter of that doctor. This is my body and my life and I have to do what is best of me and no metter if he is going to be pist off (and he will be).
and I will eat a lots of proteins today with lettuce! Njami! 
