[KO]

So yesterday I had a fibromyalgia Anxiety Attack. out of the blue teeth chattering the whole 9. First thought I WAnt chocolate.
But i didn't I put my ipod on went out side knitted until the knitting started to stress me out! So I went and I got Chocolate almond nuggets and 100 calorie oreos
and as much as a girl with WLS can binge I binged
Over the course of 3 hours I have between 7 and 10 nuggets and a 100 calorie pack
For dinner @ 9 I had a turkey burger on bread and then a NSA Skinny cow
I have my year appointment with the WLS doc today
I'm so ashamed of what I did I cried all night ALL Night I'm not a weepy person I feel like I'm going to step on the scale and be back to 205.

I'm sorry to e a downer I just needed to vent

[jiffypop]

KIER!!!!! look, honey. let's keep this in perspective. and trust me, i DO understand that it's not really about WHAT you ate or HOW MUCH you ate, but more about WHY you ate. and that feeling out of control.

first off, it's ONE SINGLE incident. and you did something other than eat to try to get rid of it. second, really, how bad COULD your binge have been? what would you have done 'in the old days?' probably an entire package of oreos and the entire bag of chocolate almonds, and then some.

sooo, you haven't done a whole lot of damage calorie-wise.

this is where the 'trial and error' hits. knitting and music helped - but only for a little while. what else can you add to the mix here? a walk? some tea? meditation? something else?

you obviously realize that this was an emotional eating moment [MOMENT - not LIFESTYLE!!!!], and you are COMPLETELY conscious and aware of this. that's such a major big huge accomplishment!!!!

now, it becomes a matter of figuring it out. and let's be honest - we girls should NEVER turn down medication if it offers the hope of helping us take care of ourselves. not saying that you need it - but you might want to discuss this with your doc.

10 almond nuggets and a 100 calorie pack with NOT make you gain 65 pounds overnight!!! that's a headgame you're playing with yourself.

but it's a real one. i DREAD putting on my clothes every blessed morning. i'm convinced that i won't even be able to get them beyond my knees, yet, here i am, no elastic waist, in jean capris that i've been wearing for 3 years now!!!! and comfortable.

and trust me, the stress that's been going on with the alzheimer's mom has actually CAUSED ME to buy clothes in size 26/28, even though when they run small, i'm NEVER larger than a 22!!

the point is - the head games will continue and continue and continue. we gotta keep some degree of objectivity and figure out ways to not buy into the insanity that we've imposed on ourselves.

chin up, Kier. you've done SOOOO much - this is a teeny tiny blip. don't let it take over your life.

[KO]

I need to get back on meds my primary is a bubble head and Never remembers to fill my prescription and talks to me like I'm 8 b/c of my disability (ugh) So I'll be calling her today.

[jaxnlula]

Kier, I hope you are doing better today. Sometimes a vent is so necessary and good.
Jiffy, You are wonderful and so very caring. What wonderful advice - to keep it all in perspective.
Let's all keep our chins up! We deserve the very best!

[nanj]

Oh Kier and Jiffy, you guys keep me so grounded!! I'm sorry Kier that you had a rough time, but it is over for now. I hope that I will be able to live and learn the way you guys do. Too keep vigilant about food, moods, and come up successful and if I do make a mistake not to wallow in it and get myself going again. Kier you have been successful for a year now and after reading your post I have the image of you as a litttle Energizer Bunny, shake it off and find a new coping mechanism. I know, I could send you my dumb SIL and you can kick him to vent!!!! An to all of those people out there who say WLS was the easy way out...BS!!!!

[original_serendipity]

OMG Kier! I'm so sorry you are having such a big FMS response. I've never experienced an FMS-related anxiety attack. I hope I never do. Hang in there lady, you made it so far!