what keeps me going???? good question. i'd say, fitting back into my clothes that i was outgrowing, losing almost 20 pounds, almost being at the weight i lied about on my drivers liscense ( i was too ashamed to put 196 on it so i lied and said 170. now i'm only 7 pounds away from that.

). having people tell me that they can tell i am losing weight. having so much more energy to do things. i feel like just running some days because i have so much energy. enjoying my moods. i am happy much more than i am depressed.
working towards getting into a 2 peice bathing suit, looking forward to seeing my soap stars and feeling like i look as good as them, looking forward to seeing one of my oldest friends and her not believing her eyes that i have dropped so much weight.
i think there are soooo many things i could go on with. but for now i'll stop.