Not really on-plan today. Got my exercise in but broke even on calories and started my fast late
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Realistically- whatever. Being an abject failure has unleashed a torrent of self-loathing that is inexplicable to me. I don't understand why I feel this way. I do okay during the day but get really sad and mean to myself about this failure at night. Waiting it out to see what weigh day (Sunday) brings. Seems likely I will need to adjust my countdown as I am at least a month behind.
Last edited by Pipsicle; 06-04-2020 at 12:49 AM.
Reason: 3579.204W
On-plan (exercise, slightly larger than planned calorie deficit and ended a fast).
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Inner Critic: You actually thought you could lose weight. hahahahahahahahhahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahh hahahahaha..... Me: Please stop Inner Critic: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA HAHAHAHA. And just so you know, anyone who reads this is also laughing at you and your foolishness. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA....
Tomorrow will be a better day
Last edited by Pipsicle; 06-04-2020 at 10:52 PM.
Reason: 3617.38R
Over ate today and only went on one walk. Still showing a half pound calorie deficit since Sunday's weigh in.
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Who are we kidding...my plan is flawed and I am incapable of doing more. Fake it until you make it. Double spoiler alert-
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I am faking it!
Didn't cry myself to sleep last night so that is something. I don't want to be doomed to a shorter and lower quality life. Since I can't get my wellness act together, that is my future.
Last edited by Pipsicle; 06-06-2020 at 01:32 AM.
Reason: 3656.39F
Was on-plan today. Had to adjust the calculated number of days left. Predicted end date is March 22, 2022. Was able to confirm a weekly loss so damage was mitigated to an additional 15 days increase instead of an entire month.
Last edited by Pipsicle; 06-08-2020 at 12:47 AM.
Reason: 3743.24N
On-plan. Completed a 20 hour fast and created a much larger than expected calorie deficit. This is all good since after reporting in yesterday, I overate and reset my fast start time. Still no sure what I am going to do but it is better to maintain than to regain. I think of all of the folks who came on here and posted only once. I always hope they've found their path. Ultimately, I feel like still being here with my head sort of in the game counts as a plus.
Last edited by Pipsicle; 06-10-2020 at 12:56 AM.
Reason: 3821.37T
Here! Not sure why but I am still here. On-plan and went for an extra walk today. Flubbed a bit after I reported in yesterday but still managed a calorie deficit. Overall, off target for the week. Tomorrow we are going to try to go out to eat for lunch so I am unlikely to catch up.
Last edited by Pipsicle; 06-11-2020 at 11:35 PM.
Reason: 3878.38R
Eh...today, I was not on-plan. Unless I do a fast between now and weigh-in, it is unlikely I will lose anything this week. Tonight I keep telling myself I am hungry and it seems to be an emotional thing that I can't quite put my finger on. I am trying not to overeat even more.
I've also made a pretty big decision. As I've mentioned, I have a bad foot and worse foot. There is a place that makes braces for situations like mine. They are phenomenal but very expensive. In addition, insurance will not cover any of the cost. I have been daydreaming about them for a really long time. When they were first invented, they were for military personnel only. They were for veterans with severe lower extremity injuries and limited from the limb salvage. Several of them were considering amputation (something that has crossed my mind as well). These braces allowed them to regain close normal life (e.g. playing basketball again vs. struggling to walk to the bathroom). Some of them even went back to active duty.
I still need to be evaluated by the designer to see if I am a good candidate. If I am and I do get them, I will be able to run for the first time in decades! Having to use the"easy exercise that anyone can do" (walking) for my fitness during the COVID restrictions has left me in a lot of pain. It has also really highlighted how limited I truly am. Fingers crossed I can get this all to work out.
Last edited by Pipsicle; 06-26-2020 at 01:21 AM.
Reason: 3907.29F
