520...

Well, here I am. Showing up again at least. I haven't tallied properly but I am sure it will be over my limit. It has been an emotionally taxing day.

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519...

Was good all day but totally went way over with dinner. Turns out I wasn't over yesterday after all but just barely. Scale was back down to posted loss but I am sure that will change tomorrow.

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518...

Definitely on the skids. All I can do is to try again tomorrow!

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517...

Today was still over calorie wise but much better. I carefully laid out my plan for the week. It is a stretch. If I do really poorly again, I will re-evaluate.

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516....or 922...

At the end of the month, I will do a proper recalculation. I may actually stay on-plan today. I know I am going off-plan as I am eating the things putting me over calorie wise. It is such a weird argument in my head. It will be particularly silly looking if I every start physically fighting with myself. My biggest rationalization is oh I just really want this now, I will eat less later or catch up tomorrow. I keep trying to remind myself tomorrow is here and I really need to get on it!

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515....because 515 feels better than 921....

Still off the rails. Unless walking in the pelting snow with a real feel temperature of 7 degrees F burned an extra 124 calories.

Hmm....how to get back on track when I generally act like a petulant child. Think, think, think.....

I am realizing I must give up my secret plan to work really hard the next couple of months. It is just too much for me. I need to return to my consistent baby steps for now. I have a good plan for tomorrow so that will be a good start.

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514....

Well on-track today. Now to keep it up for the rest of my life. Ummm...I'll just focus on tomorrow for now. I need to be on the baby step plan. Apparently that is for everything. I am still slowly finishing putting away the Christmas stuff-LOL.

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513...

Did well today; back on the slow and steady path. Having trouble sleeping although I did try to go to bed much earlier than I usually do. Today we saw a squirrel gnawing on our rain gutter. It actually gnawed the paint of in a spot!

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512...

Ah yes, the end of the month is nearing. Typically, I am worrying and fretting about what my result will be. Geez, not this month. My plan was to 'try' really hard this month. As per my past performance, I totally flopped at it. I am back on the tortoise plan and it seems like it is working. It is way too late in the month though. Any loss will be purely by chance. Any gain is well deserved as I ran off the rails.

Such is the life of a dieter. Unless that is offensive. If so, then I'll say such is the life of someone trying to change their lifestyle. I will stick to my original assessment when I started this thread- I am terrible at controlling my eating. It has been almost a year and I am still stumbling along. However, I do get kudos for perseverance. I just wish perseverance didn't feel so much like insanity- LOL. You know, doing the same thing over and over but expecting different results.

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511....

Oh My! Knowing that I am over calorie wise for the day, part of me is trying to convince myself it is okay to eat more!


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510...

Thought I was going to be able to stay on track calorie wise today but did not. I know I am overeating when I do it but don't stop myself.

I am frustrated that my weight loss is stalled out over the last couple of months. A much better spin is to say I have been maintaining. It gives me hope that when I finally work the excess weight off, I will be able to maintain it.

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509... 602...

So, I gained a pound for January. What a bummer! Moved my goal line out about a hundred days. Ugh! Days I have been working on losing weight this go around = 610. Total estimated days to lose the weight is 1212.

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601...

So, I am suppose to be dieting but you wouldn't be able to tell from what I am eating. Some where off in the weeds again today. I don't know what is going on with me or how to pull myself together on this. I will show up again tomorrow though.

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600...

Still off in the weeds. At this point, I should probably stop counting down. For whatever reason(s), I am disengaged from my efforts to lose weight and have been overeating. Part of it is definitely fatigue but I think another part of it is work stress. At least I am still showing up. There are so many people who put up one post on this board and then leave.

I have been following a weight loss blog. The blogger has really struggled with her weight as well. She had a period where she did really well and then regained about half of what she lost. Ever since then, she has been trying to lose it again with little success. It is strange to admit, I feel angry at her. I want her to be more successful and thus more inspiring. So ironic, because I am in the exact same boat. Actually typing that help me suss out what is going on. The anger is likely projection because I am mad at myself for being completely stalled out in my own journey.

For me, so far I am maintaining. In this struggle, that is something!

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maintaining is better than gaining, that's for sure, and gaining is what i was doing before i pulled my head out of the sand.
hope you work it out.