Ya know, I think that I'm feeling a little peeved that nobody's noticing my weightloss, too. In my case, I think it may be bc this is the second time I've lost this weight. Like, maybe it's embarrassing for people to notice it the second time around since I gained it all back last time. It's irritating, though, whatever the reason.
And I actually kinda have the same problem with the hubby. He has lost around 70 pounds over the last six or so years, so it's not as if we're losing it at the same time really (he's lost while I've been losing, but he was already pretty thin by the time I started), but he is a hard act to follow. And he's also a tall skinny guy -- like he's got the frame to be a slender person. I don't think I do. I'm kinda short and stocky. Gah!
Having those pesky physical problems, and especially a new dx of MS is not a small thing at all. I was dx'd with my diabetes when I was 23 (how old are you?), which was 20 years ago this week, and it through me for a loop. Like really months of depression and years before I was fully functional and had really incorporated it enough to get on with life and not be in denial. Its got some things in common with MS, one being that I'm at a higher risk of developing MS and you are at a higher risk of developing type I since they're both autoimmune, but also that you are kinda basically okay when you find out you've got this dreaded disease, but told that at some point in the future you may or may not be really screwed by it. Talk about a big nasty weight on your shoulders!
Anyway, I have been thinking about this lately probably partly bc of my stupid anniversary and partly bc about a month ago I had a group appointment w some other type I's and one of them, a 22 year old, cried through the entire 3 hour appointment. I felt so terrible for her, but also like, yeah, it is freaking hard and makes sense that she'd feel that way. And I am really feeling a little PO'd that more attention wasn't paid to how I was doing emotionally back then. It is really hard, and you should know it's really hard because otherwise, you will think that you're just not dealing with it well, kwim? I have had a lot of guilt over the years for how poorly I handled it because I didn't realize how hard it really was. But now I kind of realize that all the grief was kinda necessary and I should have had permission to have those feelings. I really recommend that anyone going through this see a therapist that specializes in this sort of thing. I think it could make a world of difference.
And big hugs to you!
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thank you sooooooo much for listening to my rant and lending your ear and advice..very much appreciated!!!!!!! ***hugs to you as well***
