I usually don't like to weigh myself frequently but for the ETL 6wk program I decided I would weigh myself just to see how things are coming along as I go. So first thing this morning I decided I was feeling lighter so I decided to step on the scale. BIG MISTAKE! My scale shows that I'm up 5lbs! What's up with that!? You can't tell me that eating more veggies, fruits, nuts, seeds, and beans compared to my old way of eating burgers, fries, cake, candy, chips, fried stuff, sugary foods, crap in general, is going to cause me to gain weight?! Comon' now!...Really? What's wrong with this picture?
I'm very discouraged this morning. Not only that I'm in a bad mood too. This is why I don't like dieting. This is the point where I stop and go back to what I was doing before. This is where I loose all interest. This is where I fail. This happens every time I try to lose weight. I end up gaining or not losing at all. This is where I quit.
But I don't want to quit this time. This has to work! I'm not getting any younger and I really need to lose all this fat before I end up in the hospital or dead. So I'm going to attribute my 5lb gain in the past 2 days to water retention and leave it at that. At least for this week. I don't know what I'll do if I have a gain next week.
Today I'm feeling desparate. I don't like feeling this way because there's no telling what I will do. I could take drastic measures either way. Whether it be a binge or starvation. I know that neither of these two things are helpful in any way. I keep telling myself to just stay put. Just keep doing what you're doing. Maybe it's my body adjusting to eating all this healthy food. Who knows. But whatever it is I hate it!
Sorry about the rant. I just needed to put this out there.


