Baylee... you think she is "old", You should see her mother she left here with me.
I have a question to ask your opinions. I am embarrassed to admit to my thoughtlessness... but here it goes.
DO you remember me telling you about my DIL family member dieing last week? I had to babysit for the funeral.
Well... when this family member died I kept "intending" to send a sympathy to the DIL mother. (other grandma) I did call her and tell her how sorry I was for the death of her family member and I told her that I would be at the funeral for her if I weren't babysitting the grandkids during the funeral. BUT... I never mailed that sympathy card I intended to. (just plain procrastination)
Well... tonight she was talking about someone else being so thoughtless to not mail a card to her. They told her their excuses why they did not send one.... so apparantly this person did call.
I know her feelings were really hurt by the lack of a card.
Question.... do I send a card now and apologize in the card for not sending when I should have? Do I let it go and learn from my mistake.? What do I do now? I feel like such an *******. I am soooo ashamed of myself. To top it off.... I hurt her feelings a couple of times during the evening we spent together. (Granddaughters birthday party) It was NOT intentional... but it still hurt her feelings. I won't go into all the details of how I did this... but trust me... she was hurt and also probably offended.
Today has been
ONE BIG CRAPPY DAY!!!
I hope I never have to live through a day like today again....
although, tomorrow doesn't look anymore promising.
The ONLY thing that went right today is.... I stayed on program.
They were planning a meal that did not fit into my food plan so I made myself my own "on program" version. I did NOT eat the HOT Fresh Bread, and I did not take a single bite of cake or ice cream. I took a small slice so no one would suspect I was dieting... and then cut it up into small pieces so it "looked" like I ate some. I gave a few bites to my grandbaby and tossed the rest.
I cried all the way home because the evening went so bad.
I was soooooo stressed from causing other grandma emotional pain from my inconsiderateness. And when I got home... I did not eat to stuff my feelings.
There are soooo many other factors into my depression right now. But the main thing I want help on for now is.... what do I do about the symphathy card??
I hope I have made sense. I feel like I am just rambling since I have not told the whole story of the entire day.