CAUTION: Juvenile Rant Ahead
So, I've been on this weight loss journey since April and have managed to go from a size 24W to a 16W and some 14/16s. My mom and dad live across the country and are coming to visit for a week. We are actually meeting her in a nearby town for a conference she's attending.
I am so nervous about seeing my mother for the first time. Although I'm a Mom and almost 40, I realize that I still need her approval. What she says really affects me. Don't get me wrong, my mom is extremely positive and has been one of my cheerleaders (long distance). We have a great relationship and I am so blessed to say that we have gone from mother/daughter to great friends. However, I am soooooo nervous.
What will her reaction be? Will she even notice? If she doesn't, I think I'll be crushed. I know that sounds sooo immature but what she says will mean more to me than anyone. I went out with the kiddos last night for festivities and saw several people I knew. I'm getting used to people telling me that they didn't recognize me. However, none of the compliments will mean anything if my Mom doesn't notice. I'm almost afraid of my reaction if she doesn't.
I went to visit her in May and told her that I was trying to lose weight. She looked at me and said "you're going to get there baby" and it was the boost I needed. Just her saying she believed in me (as she always has), was my bigggest motivator. Sometimes when I don't feel like exercising or I think "what's the point", I hear her voice saying "you're going to get there." I haven't looked back and this has been the best I've ever done with a weight loss goal.
Again, I'm kind of afraid of my reaction if she doesn't notice

. I know this is juvenile but I literally have butterflys in my stomach knowing that her plan touches down in less than an hour (even though I won't get to see her until tomorrow!).
Also, my parents LOVE to eat hometown food. I am setting a mini-goal...Next Sunday when they leave, I will post that I stayed on plan and within my calorie count during the visit. Hoping that telling you guys will help hold me accountable.