It's very unique to find a supportive group of people that have issues SO similar to your own. You ladies often discuss feelings and experiences that are incredibly pertinent and foremost in my day to day life... that the rest of the world doesn't even seem to recognize, let alone experience.
I know EXACTLY how you feel Tina. On Friday night, I went to a friend's b-day party and I drank and I ATE... she had a party spread to die for! Drinking really lowers my inhibitions in the eating department and I let myself have whatever I wanted all evening. While I was doing this I was saying, and justifiably, that once in a while, splurging was okay as maintaining a healthy body weight is a reflection of one's day to day eating styles... and eating something "special" once in a blue moon isn't what's going to matter in the long run.
I've worked SO hard in the last year to lose weight and reach goal and I know that I did nothing wrong. That said, I still feel wracked with guilt! Crazy huh? I'm definitely exercising hard and eating very well for the rest of week to make up for it! You know, I can't help thinking that I'll likely end up maintaining this week instead of losing... and losing would have been much yummier than those treats on Friday night!
Food, if I choose to let it, has such control and impact in my life; the "day after" can bring me WAY down. The crazy thing is... I know you guys understand this! Most people don't have a clue as to how much it can affect how I feel about myself!
I think, however, that I'm slowly beginning to adjust how I consider those "splurges" that my mind sees as failures. I know I've worked hard and I know I'm not about to allow my weight to creep back up. Logically, it's quite simple. Now, if I can only get my mind to accept logic... I'll be all set!
Tina: You've been doing fantastically! I know that you and me feel sucky about those splurges we occasionally have. I also know that neither of us is going to revert to our old ways of eating; we've come too far!

Okay. Quick update on the choas that my life was last week.

My kitty, Moses, is home from the vet's. He's okay... for now. There's serious concern that he may have something like cat colitis that would have serious flare-ups every few months... that would be bad because we just couldn't afford it. He's cost us $1200 in the last 5 months!!! We'll see how it goes. I am happy he's home and back to his old self... for the present at least.
After a week, TOM is still AWOL! I did a pregnancy test Friday morning (before going out to drink) and it came back negative! That's good news. I bought 2 tests though and I'll probably do another in a week or so, just to be sure... Hmm... maybe TOM has decided to take a vacation for a while (because of my weight loss); this, btw, would be FINE with me!
Well, my few moments of quiet have just disappeared so I've gotta take off for a bit!
Sara

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I am constantly amazed and totally humbled to be included in such a fantastic circle of women. How loved and supported I felt the minute I came back after posting. You know, (and I'm not just saying this) we should thank God every day for one another. It's amazing to me that I have more support from friends I've never met in person than I have from members of my own family. But then again, I guess that's because we are all on the same road together and they're off in la la land somewhere. I am going to print out all of your responses and put them in my journal so I can look back at them whenever this happens again. (and it will)
One day does not a failure make. I'm not sure which one of you said it, but thank you. Thank you all for being the best friends a girl could ever ask for.
NOW! It is time to get back to business!!
But it is definitely a learning lesson for me. Of course, it didn't help at all when dh brought me home a box of Valentine's Day candy today. I wanted to give him a great big hug......and squeeze him tight enough that his eyeballs would pop out and go flying across the room!
I did. Did I enjoy it?
Well, except the one with the coconut. I hate coconut. Then, his Mom had sent some food home. Is her food ever good? 
from the waist down waiting for my clothes to dry!
$1200.00. Not to worry you but I know many women that lost weight only to gain some if not all of it back.. In the form of a

I gotta loose some of this excess baggage in the belly area to do that!!! But I held in and did what I could, but boy was I flabbergasted!!
Everytime she said and do this, I was like yeah right lady maybe when theres about 50 lbs less of me....
. So, Im sitting there/laying there doing what I can do calling her bad bad names.....but guess she's heard it before....LOL But I will plug along and move move move. Tomorrow Im thinking a little good music and dance for 20 minutes or so in the livingroom with my 5 year old might be fun for both of us and give me a good work out at the same time. And she loves to exercise....LOL "she does not I repeat Does Not take after me.... hope she stays that way!!!
thats always a good work out.....and hes always alway a willing participant....
I will say that I gained MUCH less with my 2nd pregnancy than I did the first time around. Okay, so he's gonna be 12 in 10 days...it's time to do something about that 
