I understand the feeling of seeing the actual number. I used a scale for two years that I knew was way off and kept ignoring that fact. My husband would always tell me how different the scale was at the gym or doctor, but I chose to convince myself it was more inaccurate for smaller people and probably right for me, hahaha. Needless to say when I had to go get a physical and saw the actual number it was a little traumatic. Of course like an idiot I continued to use my scale and push that out of my mind while I gained another 10 or so pounds.
I finally decided to do this and went and bought an accurate scale. Seeing the number and accepting it was really hard that first day and I must have weighed myself 15 times. Incidentally I kept the old scale next to the new one and call it my happy scale. It makes me happy when the happy scale drops and I know the other one will catch up soon enough. At some point I probably have to stop doing these little things to trick myself.