[Eliana]

Originally Posted by susieyarb

Molly: I'm finding that I'm "shocked" to find that people I've always thought of as way thinner than me or normal sized are all of a sudden looking chubby. This morning at church, one of my friends who I haven't seen in over a month came walking up to me and I thought she looked chubby, but I had to wrap my mind around the fact that she was the same - it's me who is different! But when I see myself, I don't see that big of a change! Another lady I saw this morning I thought, "whoa, she's gained weight, but I don't think so, I think she's probably pretty much the same." I'm not thinking these things really judgementally, more observationally. My mind is just in a weird place.

Ooh, my secret guilty thoughts as well. I do not like these new eyes that now see formerly "thinner" people as suddenly "fat". I hate that my mind is constantly sizing people up and I really hope it stops. I feel so incredibly vain.

[KDM322]

ncuneo--8/10! thats awesome!! I can't imagine being that small...well, I couldn't imagine being a size 12 either! But here I am...My closet is the cleanest it's ever been because I've pulled outall my 16/18's and then bought some new stuff for the beach in June...I'm also hoping I can wear these things for a while...NEW WARDROBES ARE EXPENSIVE!!! (goodwill has become my new fav. store to buy my "in-between" clothes!!!)

hamoco--I totally know how you feel!! in between stages suck! but i guess we gotta have them to get where we're goin! I'm hoping running will thin out my thighs too!!! pants will be loose in the waist, but tight on my legs...I HATE IT!

Eliana--YES, the regular section does have a GREAT SELECTION!!! I love it!

sweetnlow--yes, I guess I'm turning kinda vain also...but now I also feel prettier so makeup is a must! and I love getting compliments on my WL..it's so encouraging!!

smj--You'll be here before you know it!! especially if you stick w/3FC! This site has made all the difference in my WL journey!!! GOOD LUCK!

windchime--I love LANE BRYANT! haha especially they're underwear...the Christmas before I started my WL journey they started making this low-rise hipster cotton underwear and I LOVE THEM! I'm still wearing them, but they're gettin big! guess I'll have to fall in love with Vic. Secret! Oh Darn!

Tai--thanks for the encouragement!! it's not so much that I don't feel like i belong in the regular dept, its just that my mind takes me to the plus size!! I'm guessing it'll just take time for my mind to catch up!

ducktape--give it time....I stayed in the same size pants for almost 30lbs...and then another 20 before I could go down another size...I've learned that patience is greatly needed in this journey! GOOD LUCK! Keep up the good work!

Susie--I too find myself comparing/observing friends/family...but now that you've commented on how it's probably just that we're smaller, the ppl aren't actually gaining...it's gonna make me rethink my observations! As Eliana said, i too hope my brain stops thinking this way!!! WOOHOO for no longer needing plus size magazines!!

jojo--what a great compliment to get from a store associate!! that would just make my day!!! Congrats on your WL!!!

[Hamoco350]

Originally Posted by susieyarb

My mind is just in a weird place.

That just about covers how I feel right now. I have a hard time relating to anyone so I'm becoming more and more secretive and resentful about things. I am trying to figure myself out mentally while I change myself physically. I also catch myself noticing people more - their weight as compared to their height, the types of clothing they wear, etc. As you mentioned, I am not judging any one of them, just genuinely fascinated. It's strange.