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Jay wrote: Saef, there is another part of you--she is neither cruel taskmaster nor stumbling creature. She is beyond those programs and judgments.
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[Snuffle, snuffle.] Thanks for that. Yes, that is the person who's able to see clearly now what was happening & to tell about it. So I know how to see it in myself, if it should come on again. I don't think it will this time, though. And so that anyone reading this might see themselves in it, if it is appropriate. For many, it won't be. For many, the problem is apathy & petering out. But for some, the problem is overzealousness, ending in a crash.
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Jendiet wrote: i suffered through two eating disorders too. anorexia, and bulemia. i actually ended up with both because i would not eat til i felt like i would starve and be so scared once i did eat, i would throw it up.--totally out of control.
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I joke that I became bulimic because I failed at being a long-term anorectic. I didn't throw up, though. My form of purging was overexercising. I don't mean a long planned stint of exercise every day. That can mean you're an athlete & you're in training. Or that you're addicted to exercise. It can mean anything, in other words. What I am talking about is bingeing, falling into blackest despair & then rushing off to the gym to "work it off" in three consecutive exercise classes plus a solitary stint on some machine.
Jendiet, personally, with my history, I avoid any kind of fasting or cleansing behaviors. I fear the mindset, for me, and I fear they would be triggers. They represent extremes & I am intent on moderation. (Please note: When I say I am not a proponent of fasting, I do not pass judgment on those with a religious background in which fasting plays a part.) I speak only for myself & my own history of extremism in self-denial & overexercising. For the likes of me, with my eating disorder background there will be no colon cleansing or Master Cleanse or one-meal-a-day plans or anything like that. It's simply not a safe thing for me to do.